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Someone message our momma! KiK SendMeBoyLove666 well more importantly us spirit pups our momma is  still angry bitter and not so much zen our momma is severly hurt if someone can message our momma that would be great for us spirit pups

i thought things were gonna ease up after droppin my other classes n zine pieces being submitted but =.= life doesn't always go tha way u expect...ive just been really dysphoric 4 the past week or so n havent been able to get much done :/ i spent all day today in bed just kinda wallowing in it.... not fun. haven't been practicing bass or doin any of tha other stuff i told myself i would, nd ive been rly bad at repsonding 2 messages ._. srry if i left u hanging anyone i had hoped that body dysphoria would be mostly a thing of the past after my medical transition but ?? sum stuff happened and im not on hrt right now so its like. not fun. it might b bc im by myself so much now that i dont have a lot else 2 focus on... i mean im spending my time playing so much video games but its just a distraction. its fun but its not rly helpful yknow. bleh i am rambling now.... i'll leave it at that :/ ~ xoxoxo glitch

           I think I am going to go see Tayla and Jadrique one of these days because I am so bored. Don't get me wrong, I like being able to relax all the time, but the bordom is so real. I have been playing games with Nick a lot. I am not usually really big into playing games that are not some form of techknowledgey based games. It's definatley a good change thats for sure. I find myself playing them more and more every day. I would like to expand my games and get more for the house. They are good for parties and social gatherings so why not get some more.          Everyone on FaceBook has been trying to talk to me lately. If I had known controlling my anger better would cause people to be more drawn to me, I would have done that  a long time ago. It's nice being well liked and respected. I am in a happier time in my life right now. I live on my own and I like it that way. No bullsh*t rules. I can do whatever the f*** I want without getting bitched at.           I am super excited because I was able to order the last three necklaces that I wanted online. I am super stoked to get them all in the mail. I don't normally wear necklaces, but I am now because I just found a bunch that I really like! They are all blinged out and they say things. I have one that says "Barbie" that is all blinged out, a blinged out necklace that says "Thug", one that says "Rich Bitch" that one is all blinged out as well, I have a blinged out "Boss" necklace, and then the last one is a pink necklace that says "Trust No Bitch" in black writing. I am super siked! They are all super f***ing pretty! I can't wait to wear them!  They make me look really classy and rich. I mean, I am classy and I grew up with very rich parents, so it's not a lie. I don't know when I am going to get them, but I hope that they don't take TOO long to come. I want to wear them to work when I go back. Ok, I just looked online and they should be here in the next week or so! Sweet! I ended up grabbing my necklace holder that my grandma gave me because I can just hang them on it. It kinda looks like a mini coat hanger. I really like it. I'm glad that I kept it all of these years. I never thought I would actually use the thing!          I think I might take a nap today. I didn't sleep very good last night. I had a hard time falling asleep for some reason. So, with that being said, I am rather tired today. I didn't really sleep in or anything either. I hope that tonight goes better for me. I really want to get that other lighter too but I cant afford it at the moment. Next pay day though! Then after I buy that last lighter, I will have everything that I have wanted! I'm still waiting on all my gauges to arrive. A few pairs have come already, but I got some more that I comming too. I ordered a lot of them because I had only one pair for the longest time. I needed new ones and I need more options to choose from. I am super f***ing happy about it. I can't wait till everything arrives. 

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uhhh ok long time no blog. i havent had interesting stuff to talk abt and honestly ive hardly kept up w/ my irl journal. i never even finished my last entry lmao.but uh whats been up with me! quarantine sucks but i still plan on doing stuff i like!!! that involve no other living beings. i plan 2 go out and howllll at the full moon !!! its gonna be so fun im gonna bring like. some paint. and write crude things on things. maybe find some bottles to smash. its gonna b fun fun fun. other than that uhhh i have something kinda embarrassing tht i wont talk about. ive kinda sworn to never ever say anything about it bc of reasons but aagghh its lame. i hope im over it soon bc my brain doesnt know how to act normal over those things. i just gotta ride it out.anyway yeah thats it. go home.

cutting my rats nest emo hur!!! here it is! i would rly b grateful if u guys watched it n shared it w a friend! tytytytyty

Oh man I got a lot to catch up on, I should be on Day 8, oops! I also should be writing short story ideas for my writing class but i give up 0-0 Pets!! I love having pets ;-; I've had way too many pets throughout my life so i'll just talk about the ones I've bonded with the most. This is the only image I have of him right now, but this was my childhood dog, Chato, the sweetest boy ever and my only best friend for the longest time. I swear he would know when I was sad and would come and sleep with me even though he wasn't supposed to. Sometimes he'd be baracaded in the back room and he'd somehow manage to get out and come comfort me. You can't see it in this picture but he had a long tongue that would stick out! He passed away back in 2016. I still miss him so much everyday. Sometimes he visits me in my dreams...I've also had lots of rats!! This was my main boy, Frankie. I got him from a feeder store back in 2017. I learned after I got him that you should have 2 rats or more because they're very social and need constant interaction. So I went to petsmart and got another rat that a worker told me was male. It was not male and I ended up with 12 rats at one point. Of course I couldn't keep them all and just kept Frankie and two of the kids, Gus and Bandit They all passed away a while back ago now :( I got to be there for Frankie but Gus and Bandit died while I was away at school which made me really sad. They had good lives though and they're all in good places now ♥I have a dog and a cat currently, but honestly I love the cat more. My grandma brought him with her when she moved in some years back. This is Kitten's Mittens. I just call him Kitty or "the cat" most of the time though lol. I'd like to think that Chato's soul was reborn in him. He was born not too long after Chato died and his demenor is very much the same. He's so sweet and talks A LOT and acts more like a dog than your stereotypical cat. I love hanging out with him in the backyard.aight idk how to end these blogs but that's it, that's all my favorite pets xo

          I am really bored. I don't really know what to do with myself. I think I might clean my apartment or something. That would keep me entertained for a good while. There are lots of things that need to be done. I just have a hard time finding the motivation to clean and get up and do things. Once I get up though and do things, I'm ok and that motivation slowly starts to hit me. Ever sense this Corona Virus hit the USA, I've been super depressed. My body just hates me right now. I'm sure everyone else is going through the same thing as me right now, so I don't feel so bad. Some people are worse than others because of being laid off for months. We don't really leave the house unless it's to take a walk, or go buy things we need for the house. I miss the days being about to go out and have fun with all of your friends and family. This really sucks! If I could hang out with people and be making the same amount of money with unemployment, then that would be a different story. I would be enjoying life right now! Getting paid not to work and to just have fun? That would be the life right there! I think I am going to take a shower at some point today too. I have hairspray in my hair so its all gross and stuff. I am going to need to redye my hair again too. My roots are showing again. I might do that tomorrow or something. I don't feel like doing it today. I don't really enjoy dying my hair anymore like I used to. I'm happy with my black hair. My hair is super f***ing healthy now! Most days I wear my hair up too and not heat style it. I will some day maybe go back to platnum blonde, but not any time soon. It really damages the crap out of your hair to get it that perfect almost white hair color. It's something to do to pass the time. I am really getting sick of doing the same stuff over and over and over again.           I ended up cleaning up my room a little bit. I have to get some other stuff done in my room like vaccuming my room and picking up stuff that needs to be put away. I will probably wait to vaccum till everything is completely picked up all around the apartment. I would like to do it all at once though. I figure I should pick up everything first. That's the most important thing that needs to get done because I will f***ing loose it if my apartment is a mess. It will litterally annoy me. If I feel like I'm surrounded by mess, I get bitchy. I don't like there being junk everywhere. I don't know how I used to be able to live like that. I used to just throw everything on the floor and now I have to pick it up if I do. I really need to get into the habit of cleaning up after myself. I have been struggling with that one lately too.           I've been getting back into pop muisc lately. I like to listen to songs that I can sing to sometimes too. You can't always do that with rap. Some songs you can, but not like you can with pop muisc. Plus I am getting sick of listening to the same music over and over again. I'm trying to go through new songs on Youtube of my favorite artists growing up. I need a change. I just am sick of everything. I something new.           I had to make a list for me and Nick to follow at my apartment. I am getting sick of him being lazy and me being lazy. No more of that sh*t. I'm going to be on his ass about that stuff too. He can't be leaving trash out all of the time. He says he gets sick of picking up after me but he still leaves sh*t around too. We are both equally messy. It needs to stop. I am getting really sick and tired of having to do a sh*t tone of things every two days. It piles up and gets overwelming. Right now I am in the process of cleaning my apartment. I am cleaning off things and whiping things down. We have been having an ant problem and this just needs to stop. This is not happening anymore. The food needs to be completely sealed off and Nick isn't doing that and it's gross. We both need to change these things. Some of these things are not my fault and some of these things are. My point is, we need to change or else. I think I am going to go now though. There are some more things that I would like to get done tonight before I go to bed. Good night!          

  This is a fake story, but there are some things that have actually happened to me, such as the choking in my bed, feeling watched, and stuff moving in my room. As well as the aches and pains, headaches, and the touching. I have never touched a ouija board, especially not after what happened to my dad. In fact I don't even remember what I did to get this "spirit" to attach itself to me. I didn't go to a cemetery, but when I did I was respectful. I never did any of those creepy games. I am not a religious person. In fact I never really leave the house, unless for school. But lately I've stayed at home. Sorry that this is a little long, but I wanted to share my experience, while also adding a few details to make it interesting.I feel like I'm being attacked. About a year ago, I was listening to one of your stories with one of my friends during lunch. I don't really remember which one it was, but I remember that it creeped me out and I was excited for the next one. My friend had to throw out her trash, and left me there. A kid from a class above me came over to me and asked if I wanted to play a game. I asked what game, and she told me that it was a scary game. I remembered what you said about ouija boards, and that you would never try one. I was thinking about creepy games that I knew of, but couldn't find out which one she might be talking about. I reluctantly said yes, wondering if I might regret it. I would find out in a few days that I would. It turns out that the game we were playing was in fact a ouija board. I sat next to the girls, they put their hands on the planchette. I didn't and the other girls looked at me. "Aren't you gonna play, you're not scared, are you?" one girl asked. I love horror, so being scared doesn't really happen anymore. I sighed and touched the planchette. One girl asked the board if there was a ghost. The planchette moved to the word yes. The girls looked at each other, making sure if one of them wasn't the cause of the movement. The next girl asked if the spirit was good. the board answered by going from "M" to "A" to "Y" to "B" to "E". "Maybe? What does that mean?" one of the girls asked. The planchette didn't answer, in fact three girls asked questions and the planchette didn't move. The girls looked at me, which meant that it was my turn to ask a question. I decided to ask a simple question. I knew not to ask how you die, what their name is, or to show them to you. I've watched all the movies and read all the books. I thought for a moment, not knowing what to ask. I decided to ask what the afterlife was like. The planchette suddenly flung out from our hands and hit a nearby bookshelf. The girls screamed and tried to leave. I knew we had to end the game the right way, we have to say goodbye. I grabbed the leader's arm. She turned and looked at me. Knowing what I was going to say, so she called all the girls back, and I got the planchette. I set it on the board and we put a hand on the planchette. We all said goodbye as we moved the planchette towards the word. After that the girls quickly left and I was alone with the board. I picked it up and set it on a nearby table. The girl who owned it later took it home with her. The whole day I got chills down my spine, I felt like someone was watching me. When I would turn around to see who was watching me, there would be no one there. That night I went to sleep. I didn't dream, I mean I don't really dream anyways. At some point in the night, I could feel two rough, definitely manly hands, wrap around my throat. I felt like all the air from my lungs had been sucked out. I opened my eyes and sat up in bed. The hands were still there and I fell off my bed, I began to crawl to the door, hoping to get someone, anyone's attention. I opened the door and suddenly the hands were gone, I could breathe again. I sat there on the floor in the dark, gasping for air, taking huge gulps, while trying to figure out what happened. I decided that I wasn't going to sleep anymore that night. The next day I was brushing my hair. My dad yelled at the bottom of the stairs that he needed help with the groceries. "Coming!" I yelled back. I set my brush down on my dresser. I helped him with the groceries, and went back upstairs. I went for my brush, but found that it was no longer on my dresser, in fact it was no longer in my room, which I found out after 10 minutes of searching. My sister probably took it, again, I rolled my eyes and went over to her room. I knocked and she answered with a snarky, "What?" I calmed myself down so I didn't start an unnecessary fight. "Did you take my brush? I was still using it." She looked at me. "No, It's not my fault you lose your stuff." She then closed the door in my face. I looked all over the house, but couldn't find my brush. I told my dad and we went to the store to get me another one. When I came home, I went to my room and placed the brush on my dresser. When I went into my closet to put my shoes away, I saw my brush, the one I lost, on the floor. I picked it up, there was hair that didn't belong to anyone in our family. It was long and black. I took the hair out of the brush and threw it away. Putting my brush with my new one in the process. Two days later we were at school. I asked the girls who played the Ouija board with me, if they had any weird experiences. All of them said no. The days went on and although I've never been choked in my sleep anymore, I still, even writing this, feel like there is someone behind my watching and smiling, but there is never anyone there. A couple of weeks ago, I went on a walk, alone, because no one would go with me. I went walking down our neighborhood. Which all of my neighbors are part of the cult called Ramptha. I don't know much about it, and neither does google, But all my neighbors are very creepy. I felt like someone was walking behind me. So I turned around, and of course no one was there. I turned around and sighed. I will be honest I have never been more scared than at this moment. Because when I sighed, I could feel a hand, the same hand from the night I was choked, resting on my shoulder. I quickly turned around to see if someone was there. No one was there. And as I turned, the hand vanished. It did not lift like a person's hand would, but simply was there, then wasn't. That was not the only time I was touched. I get poked in the shoulder when I sleep, I feel like someone is holding my waist, or resting their hands on my shoulders. All while no one is there. I once even felt like someone touched my cheek, I'm still not sure if it was a kiss or something else, and believe me I don't want a ghost for a boyfriend. And just writing this That is not all. I also have a very hard time sleeping. I always feel like somebody's watching me. I get constant headaches, and aches in my body. As if someone is clutching onto me tightly. One day I even felt like someone punched my stomach. Now I know there are explainable reasons for this happening. But I always take care of my body, there is no way for me to have a headache every day, or feeling like I'm going to puke constantly. I'm also getting sick more often. I don't know why this is happening to me. But I hope that people can hear this and just understand what I'm going through.  

... I don't even.(test post)- Smooth Operator

elon musk is one of the worst people alive. he's some sort of neocapitalist who prides himself not only on owning the means of production, but also is a modern-day thomas edison, with no technical skill beyond coding a dinky peer finance app and now hires actually qualified scientists and engineers to cater to his whims, which just so happen to echo those of some sort of nerdy, self-righteous thirteen year old. he tweets all day about his smart little opinion and "data" that he always interprets incorrectly, incedentally spreading dangerous, right wing conspiracies. he has his little scientist minions making rocket ships and sending sick sports cars into space in some dystopian plan to privatize all science. i f***ing hate elon musk and he should be guillotined with the others. happy may day. f*** elon musk

Hello everyone, Im new here, Hi! How are ya!!! 

SO, it has been a while hasnt it o.Omy name is, you guessed it, ryan. im 14, scemo, and i still like the same things. i use he/they pronouns, and im still HELLA into dudes and masc aligned peeps. im a lot more active on my insta: xx.r0tt3n.xx so ye :D that is all i has to say. have a goob day!

yeah i'm doing another 1 of these lolcredit 2 lawrence here on friendproject!! :)NAME?:my name is ben B-)PREFERRED PRONOUNS?:he/him!!!SEXUALITY?:i'm bisexual :)DO U PREFER SCENE OR EMO?:tbh i prefer emo, but also, scene fashion ROCKS.WOULD U CONSIDER URSELF SCENE OR EMO?:yes lolIF YES, WHICH ONE?:bothHOW LONG HAVE U BEEN AN EMO/SCENE KID?:well. i started getting rly into scemo sh*t in like january. there'z more info abt it on the alt survey i did a lil while ago.WHAT'S UR FAVORITE COLOR(S)?:I LOVE GREEN!!! green and pink go rly well together tbh. also green and black.WHO R U MORE LIKELY TO MAKE FRIENDS WITH-- SCENES OR EMOS?:idk. depends on what the person's like.FAVORITE ARTIST/BAND?: GLASS ANIMALS! they're neither scene nor emo but i still love them.TOP THREE FAVORITE SONGS?:i can't pick favorites very well :(((MAKE A PLAYLIST FOR UR CURRENT MOOD?:lava lamp - cucomr loverman - ricky montegomeryself esteem - ajjsomething for your m.i.n.d. - superorganismamerican idiot - green dayidk that's all i can come up w/ right nowFAVORITE PLACE TO GET UR MUSIC FROM?:spotify lolDO U DOWNLOAD MUSIC?:no not rly..DO U THINK "POSERS" EXIST?:yeah lol. but i also think y'all shouldn't just throw that around at whoever does something slightly different than you, bcuz i've seen ppl do that. tbh if you're having fun ig that'z all that matters.THOUGHTS ON "PREPS"?:they're not all bad lol. as long as they're not bitchy i'm cool w/ them.WHAT KIND OF HAIRSTYLE DO U HAVE?:uhh. it's short. it's kinda gotten 2 the point now where it'z got stuff peeking out from behind my neck lol.HAVE U EVER DYED UR HAIR?:yeah :) recently dyed my hair blackHAVE U EVER PUT DYED PATTERNS IN UR HAIR?:no but that soundz rly fun!!!!!DO U CURRENTLY USE HAIR EXTENSIONS?: no lolHAVE U EVER USED HAIR EXTENSIONS?:nopeIF YES, WHAT KIND WERE THEY? ( CLIP INS, BEADS, ETC! ):n/aDO YOU WEAR KANDI JEWELRY?:i don't have much actual kandi but i would rly like to make some :(( i have a few bracelets w/ beads tho. 1 of them is just sumthing i found at goodwill lolz, and there's also a miku 1 my friend made 4 me.IF YES, WHAT KIND OF KANDI JEWELRY IS YOUR FAVORITE TO WEAR?:uhh bracelets lmaoIF NO, DO YOU STILL LIKE KANDI JEWELRY?:ofc kandi is so cool!!!!!!!IF YES, WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TO SEE ON OTHERS?:idk. the masks some ppl make are hella radKANDI BEADS ON SHOELACES, YAY OR NAY?:YAYYYY!!!!!IF U COULD, WHAT KIND OF KANDI JEWELRY WOULD U MAKE?:probably more bracelets. i luv bracelets!!IF U COULD, WOULD U SELL KANDI JEWELRY?: i mean. i could use the money tbh.DO YOU COLOR YOUR NAILS?:rarely lol. i should do it more.IF YES, WHAT COLOR(S)?:black. that'z p much it.DO YOU WEAR MAKEUP?:nopeIF YES, WHAT'S UR FAVORITE KIND OF MAKEUP?:eyeliner is cool but whenever i try it it makez me feel like sh*t lolFAVORITE EMO KID?:uhhh idkFAVORITE SCENE KID?:idk either lolzWHAT KIND OF WRITING STYLE DO U HAVE? ( HARDCORE SCENE, HARDCORE EMO, NORMAL, ETC ):on this blog, i mostly write hella scene uwu. but usually my writing is pretty normal.EXAMPLE OF UR EVERY DAY WRITING?:some excerpts from me texting my bsf:me talking about my birthday celebration on animal crossing: "my twin's doing her own thing now and AHDJDJ RODEO'S WEARING A SUIT AND TOP HAT I L OVE THIS MAN"me while we're talking about future plans with chicks: "bro. one day we should go hold baby chicks togetherI did that once at a Bomgaars and that was one of the best things everalso another time at some horse showI love chicks so much....likeI feel bad about it sometimes though because they didn't choose to get held but also THEY'RE SO CUTE :'((( and I'm gentle with them as much as I can manage"also I use a lot of text acronyms n sh*t like lol, lmao, wtf, tbh, and smh.R U OPEN TO FRIENDSHIPS?:yeah of course!! :)HOW DID U FIND FRIENDPROJECT?: i was following a scene account on instagram i think and they made a post about it and i was like :OOOOOOO!!!!!!!!DO U HAVE ANY SCENE/EMO FRIENDS IRL?:no :( plenty of punk friends thoughIF YES, WHICH ONE? ( BOTH, JUST SCENE, JUST EMO, ETC. ):n/aWOULD U SAY U HAVE A LIFE OUTSIDE OF EMO/SCENE STUFF?:yeah lol of courseIF YES, WHAT IS IT LIKE, IF UR WILLING TO SHARE?:i'm also very involved in the punk community. i am an anarchist, and although i've yet to figure out specifically what my beliefs are politically, i believe that the us government and capitalism in general is severely flawed and must be changed. i also do lots of art, and i plan on having a career in the fine arts later in life. my parents are divorced, and until recently, i've been switching houses every 2 weeks. i've been stuck at my mom's for like over a month now bcuz of quarantine, but honestly i prefer it that way lolz. i am, as far as i'm aware, a good student. i try my best, anyway lmao. i was called a gifted kid when i was younger, which, honestly, was a bad move, because now i have way high expectations 4 myself and i have a hard time actually doing my work lol. i have three cats, whom i all love. i'm currently a freshman in high school (i know 16 is old for a freshman, my parents held me back in preschool because they thought i needed the extra education since i was born prematurely.) i am a trans man (wow shocker) and i've been on testosterone for 5 months. uhh. idk that's all i can think of right now.IF NO, WHAT GOT U STARTED ON SCENE/EMO STUFF?:idk lolR UR FRIENDS/FAMILY ACCEPTING OR UR EMO/SCENE LIFESTYLE?:most of my friends are. my family is not lol.DO U WEAR UR SCENE/EMO STUFF TO WORK OR SCHOOL?:occasionally. i'm a little shy abt it tbh. i care a lot abt what other ppl think of me. not very punk rock of me, i know.IF YES, WHAT KIND OF REACTIONS DO U GET?:some compliments. also some judgemental looks and comments. which is funny, because my school is known for having a bunch of weirdos there.IF NO, WHY NOT?:n/aHOW DID THIS SURVEY MAKE U FEEL?:idk. it was p cool tho.ENDING COMMENTS?:a gr8 waste of time! :) thx man.