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i'm so tired. its spring break though!!!!! having a morning redbull and i feel like doing nothing today. but here's a little update for my "readers". i have a site for all the pics i take. THE SITE i update it frequently 

just want to get this off my chest.(this is going to be very long by the way)about over a year and a half ago (july of 2022) i met this guy on the internet.i was about 13, i was going through a bit of a rough patch in my life, and i really needed someone i could lean on during those times. so i met him, he was kind, caring, and very understanding of my troubles and the things i was going through at the time. was 15, so i started to develop feelings for him really quick (because god forbid the first person to show me kindness i fall in love with..) and apparently he had started to sorta get feelings for me as well, so we started to "date."long story short, this didnt last for very long, he ended up disappearing one day, he was gone for around 2 whole months untill he came back. he scared me half to death with that, because he had told me in the past he was suicidal.so i was releived to finally get back in touch with him after all that time.little did i know he was just gonna up and leave again. for 6 months.so, 6 months pass, im basically just then starting to move on and accept the fact he was gone (because i was very attached to him.)  he decided to finally show his face after half a f**king year of being gone.now for the hard stuff. after a few days of catching up with him, what had been happening all that time he was gone, we decided to OFFICIALLY start dating. (i was now 14, he was 16)after just like, not even barely a month into our relationship, he started to pressure me into sexual stuff.like ever so slightly, not very much, but there was very much that sort of, feeling obligated to do it.i was already really attached and bonded with him. so i felt like it was right. (and it wasnt like we hadnt discussed stuff like that before, so it felt ok at that time.)but over time it got more and more...graphic? disgusting?he was starting to talk about doing really like.."hardcore" things to me.things that involved like, pain or non consent.i wasnt really into that, and im still not, but i just did it so i could make him happy with me.but again this still wasnt like, the worst he was saying.this little "roleplay" thing he wanted to do started turning into him ACTUALLY wanting to r*pe and SA me outside of roleplay.he was talking about wanting to torture me.hurt me physically. beating the sh*t out of me.he even talked about wanting to "f**k me so hard that i bleed and cry."i really didnt enjoy any of this. i thought it was so weird that he wanted to do these things to me.he said that he would never hurt me. or even try. and i beleived when he said those things...i have screenshotted proof of him saying these things as well. but i wont provide those for the sake of others, because its really graphic and frankly revolting.he would constantly degrade me and call me all these names. and if anyone is wondering if i ever spoke up against these things, i did. i tried.he would go so far some times that i would HAVE TO intervene and make him stop.but when i did he would just sit there and guilt trip me. make me feel bad for saying i wasnt comfortable with the things he was saying.during "roleplays" i would genuinely fight back against him, just trying to ever so slightly hint to him that i REALLY wasnt enjoying what was being played out and discussed.guess its my fault for not really trying hard enough there. but i was just scared that he was gonna get mad or start problems with me, because that had happened multiple times in the past when i directly tried to get him to stop.and i was at a stage where he had began to isolate me away from all my friends, my family, everyone.so i had nobody else besides him in my life, so i really couldnt leave because i couldnt stand he thought of being alone again.and i knew if i left him i would just come crawling back.he was getting so overbearing with everything, he was constantly dumping his problems onto me, so i could fix them.i had my own problems and my own issues, and he knew that.he didnt want me to prioritize myself, he just wanted all my attention everyday all day, and if i did have to go do something, he would get all whiny and try to guilt trip me into staying.gonna try to shorten this a little more now, less details i guess.so basically he also made me, start physically hurting myself over the phone.it was "phone sex" but he made sure i had to make it painful for myself, there were a lot of times where i faked it.but i couldnt fake it all the time because he would know if i was. im not the best and faking pained screams and whines.i would be in so much pain after each "session." and i told him i would be in pain, but he clearly didnt care.he would constantly make me do this, damn near everyday i had to do it ATLEAST once.sometimes he would make me do it more than once in a day.i think the highest amount he made me do it before in one day was four times.FOUR TIMES. i was in so much damn f**cking pain i couldnt walk.the only time i could get breaks from this was when i was on my period. again lomg story short, after a little while, he had a new sort of "interest" he wanted to talk to me about.z**philla.he had a thing for F**KING DOGS.AND HE OWNED A DOG.i hope and pray to whatever god thats up there if there even is one, he did not f**king touch that poor dog.at that point i was just f***ing done.i was making his life hell in everyway possible for that.he ended up dumping me around 2 months ago.good ridance.i had to deal with that sh*t for 7 months straight.

This interaction happened when i was living in Washington State at around 8-10 years old (i can't remember which age). Me and my siblings were hanging out upstairs in our playroom (the room on the right/the first room you will pass by when walking in the hall), next door, beside the playroom, was our bed room (btw it had the attic door in that room), then beside the bedroom was the bathroom. We had a couch facing the door in the playroom, i was sitting on it facing the door while my siblings were playing. I was looking out the door into the hall, and i saw a tall male shadow head the direction of the bathroom or our bedroom. I was hella freaked out, so i told my siblings that we had to go downstairs now, they were like "why", i told them i saw something in the hallway and we all ran downstairs, i made sure all 3 of my siblings were out of the room before i left...we went downstairs and i told my mom, she said that it was probably my imagination to not make me more scared, but i know for a fact it was real. I am not the only one that experienced paranormal activities in that house, my mom and my sister also experienced them. My mom also sees shadows in her room getting closer to her, thats why she used to sleep with the lights on...and my sister heard knocking sounds in the closet that was in the playroom..that house was for sure haunted and ever since we moved the paranormal things stopped.

I was in the 3th grade, we were doing an art project. My friend messed up on hers and restarted, so she had 2 papers now (keep that in mind). She went away from me to talk to our teacher, i needed to test out a color, i tried to get my friends attention to ask her which of her papers was the one she doesn't need. She didn't answer, and i was impatient, so i drew a blue line on the paper she was working on...thankfully it wasn't a problem because she used my mark as a raindrop (because we were doing a person with an umbrella in the rain drawing). But i feel so bad because i never, ever told her...thankfully all went well. I miss her and my other friends so much.

all ive been doing ever since my last post is school, aquabats, and my site. (MY SITE) i knoooow i said i got a diary last post but i was too lazy to keep writing in it. haw haw. i've seen the aquabats thrice now, and i reaaallly wanna see them again with no doubt. really bad! really really bad! i'll update whenever i wanna. but i AM very lazy .

Im back!! I decided I needed to clear my soul so I ran away to the beach for a bit! But I'm back now!Always a moose,Kailey

DNI..♡pedos, creeps.♡religious pplz that force their religion onto others.♡racists, sexist, and so on.♡zoo's.♡homophobic, transphobic, etc.♡if ur mean (im overly sensitive....)  ♡  IF YOU ARE AGAINST AGE REGRESSION!!!!!!!♡if u cant stand my constant yapping 😢♡I HAVE RLLY BAD REJECTION SENSITIVITY .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·. THAANK U!!!!!!!!!!!!!(˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

dude 

Departure is long last, for death shall overcome all.More eternal than death is love.Though diluted and sunken under in the eyes of god, should you stay on your high pedestal in my thoughts.In my heart, the only thing more dead than death itself.Mind numbing pain in the form of heartache lasts for you ever long.One day, my love, shall we meet again.In another life, or in death itself, we shall meet again.The moment we are reunited, should we ever leave again, death will come by our own hands. I, your savior.I, your love.I, your last breath. I alone will be the holder of your heart.Of your tired, vacant eyes.Your lost soul, found in my eyes and held in my heart.

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[One] Who is your last text from?saphy[Two] Where was your default picture taken?[Three] What's your middle name?my parents named me and my brothers middle names like two russian royals (its katarina) but i like to shorten it to karina;)[Four] Your current relationship status(married or not)?obvi not[Five] Does your crush like you back?yes ive never been rejected[Six] What is your current mood?really good cause i finally get to chll and sleep in my own bed after like 2 weeks. ugh[Seven] What's your mom's name?Bibi[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?grey![Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?many things [Eleven] Do you like drinking tea?yes with exactly 3 cubes of sugar in each cup[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?when i tried to try kms in a phase (im still standing) [Thirteen] Something you do a lot?bake cookies[Fifteen] Who can you tell anything to?MJ, may, tommy, jewel, ivy[Sixteen] Name someone with the same birthday as you?PAUL RUDD[Seventeen] When was the last time you cried?dont remember[Eighteen] How many people have you kissed?the ones i remember orrrrr..? [Nineteen] If you could be one super hero, who would it be?poison ivy[Twenty-one] What do you usually order from starbucks?caramel frappuccino im such an addict i crave this every minute[Twenty-two] What's your biggest secret?my biggest secret is that my friends think that i still have big secrets, i actually told all my close ones everthing about me in detail wuthout remorse or their free will (im serious there is nothing im hiding EVER) [Twenty-three] Favorite color?dark red, soft pink , green, dark purple[Twenty-five] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?ну погоди for life kinda[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?non[Twenty-seven] Do you speak any other language?russian, german [Twenty-eight] What's your favorite smell?vanillaaaaaa i got everything vanilla [Twenty-nine] Describe your life in one word what would it be?panic[Thirty] Have you ever kissed in the rain?no[Thirty-two] What are you thinking about right now?michael j fox [Thirty-three] What should you be doing?be on another birthday party but im too tired so i ditched[Thirty-four] Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?amy bruhThirty-five]Who was the last person you kissed?my situationship ()[Thirty-six] Do you like working in the yard?nope! [Thirty-seven] If you could have any last name in the world, what would it be?macchio because id have a specific person as hubby [Thirty-eight] Do you act differently around the person you like?always be urself guys [Thirty-nine] What is your natural hair color?dark brown mehhhhh[Forty] Who was the last person to make you cry?my boss ;( 

Do you think you are pregnant?maybe? If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?SPRINGYou've had sex within these past 10 days haven't you?..............................................You have to get a piercing, what do you get?bellybuttonYou have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?for my first tattoo i want a bow on my collarbone middle of my throat, otherwise something like rose or swan What are you wearing?grey sweater, pearl necklace and jeans Do you miss anyone?no im missedWhen is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?yesterday nightPlans for tomorrow?sleep, eat, drink, homocide and netflix i supposeIs anything wrong? a lot ,yes , my phone died ! Do you have a good relationship with your parents?yea Are your friends taller than you?nah im the tall slim sexy bestfriend :P What were you doing this morning at 5:30?sleeping on my friends peppa pig plushieWhat were you doing 2 hours ago?sleeping (so eepy)Do you like the ocean?no fckn scary Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?"would you rather be atsuko maeda or a homeless unkown" ahh questionHow many windows are open on your computer?5Texted?mjWas the first person you talked to today male or female?maleWho was the last person you rode in a car with?tommy What woke you up this morning?my brainly alarmDo you know anyone named Matt?no thank god When was the last time you talked to a sibling?30 min ago Is your hair curly or straight?straight Do you wear glasses?soon...............thanks to failing my vision test for driving lessons Are you currently jealous?no who of? What are you doing today?sleepWhat jewelery are you currently wearing?pearl necklace and earrings :) my fav Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?yes easyilyHave you ever in any way, been betrayed by someone you trust?honestly who hasnt How late did you stay up last night and why?2am because of birthday party Are you picky about who you give your number to?yES!!! What do you prefer: McDonalds or Burger King?mcdonalds....take the happy meat farms somewhere else Would you rather go to Greece or Hawaii?hawaii What color is your underwear right now?black What are you listening to right now?93 til infinity by souls of mischief What are the last 2 digits in your phone number?69 :P What was the last thing you ate?chicken wingsIf you were a crayon what color would you be?the yumy snake green ones How is the weather right now?its stormy which is why i got no wifi which is why i do this survey ...Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?lizzy The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?hair cause i will be looking if youre a lightblonde middlepart guy !!! Favorite type of food?right now im craving sweet but ask me again later ill probably say heartyDo you smoke?casually Ever get so drunk you dont remember?well, i dont remember What color are your eyes?hazel Do you wear contacts?black ones sometimes Single?luckily Ever cried for no reason?noLast Movie you watched?back to the future Are you too shy to ask someone out?nope im always the one What books are you reading?the outsiders and christiane f. Have you ever fired a gun?i used to love nerf guns Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car?no i hate planeHow many pillows do you sleep with?5 

not at ALL not EVER not even CLOSE (no offense to the virgos!!!)