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disappointed
hi everyone :( i’m kinda in a weird situation right now and i don’t know what to do about it ?? i thought i’d talk about it here because all of you seem so kind and understanding. but ! sadly, this is about feelings and yikes sjdjd. for a few months now i’ve just been living in a blur and i don’t know how to escape from it. my mom tends to be an alcoholic and emotionally abusive but she turned to physical and my brain shut off any emotions and now i can’t feel anything. she hasn’t done anything too bad since then but i want to know ,,,, how do i feel again ? i’m really tired of living in a blur, the day goes by and i don’t even feel it. i don’t feel much really, but all i know is that it’s tiring to talk to people but i really try hard. is that the solution ? should i try harder to talk to people ? or do i need help ? should i just never talk to anyone again and deal with this in private ? i’m so confused. i don’t know what’s good for me anymore. it’s very peaceful to be alone, but i’m still stressed because i’m not getting anything done; i don’t do anything about it. i just keep rolling with the punches and not feeling anything. it’s very confusing and i don’t know how to deal with myself. i wish i knew how to handle this.
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advice, help, mental illness ,
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