Playing in the big leagues,
Playing in the little leagues,
Teaming it,
Playing hard,
Playing SPORTS,
Playing watersports,
Quitting watersports,
Washing,
Washing again,
Washing again, and again, and again,
Feeling sober,
Smiling at the clock,
Running it,
Keeping time - time - time in a sort of Runic rhyme,
Remembering,
Forgetting again,
Telling you to f4wk off,
Hearing you tell me to f4wk off,
Listening,
Cursing the accursed world,
Feeling bad,
Piecing it all together,
Coming around,
Seeing things,
Attempting to write the Next GREAT Novel again,
Only producing a page,
Screwing it up,
Bombarding your DMs with lonesome gifs of bunnies,
Getting no replies,
Saying "Who the Hell cares!" alone at the bar,
Waiting like a loyal loser,
Winning!
Not Winning and lying again,
Playing Marvel Ultimate Alliance for the millionth time,
Remembering favorite pron stars,
YouTubing S Club 7 videos on repeat,
YouTubing all music videos from the 90's and early 2000's,
Realizing 98 Degrees is the manly boyband,
Realizing why I never realized that was because I didn't have experience,
Learning I have experience,
Asking myself if I could train the next Zorro,
Knowing I cannot train the next Zorro,
Realizing I'm only gonna be comfortable with Antonio Banderas,
Thinking,
Thinking some more,
Thinking about Giant Squid,
Thinking about Rhona Mitra and Uri Geller,
Thinking about MTV,
Thinking about Nickelodeon and theme parks,
Thinking about jumping off a Giant Mickey Mouse head,
Thinking about doing a superhero landing,
Thinking about the audience going WILD,
Thinking YES,
Amazing myself,
Being perfect,
Getting plastic surgery,
Music
"Sweet Little Mystery" and "Fisherman's Dream" By John Martyn do it for me. I like other stuff, too. I'm not a weirdo. It's just these two songs connect on an *emotional* level. I can tell I'm making you more of yourself and now slamming the door. The car keys are my face. I can only unlock a toy Batmobile. This is existence.
Movies
The Thing Called Love (1993)
Once Upon a Time in the West (1968)
Unforgiven (1992)
K-PAX (2001)
Dan in Real Life (2007)
The Man Without A Face (1993)
What Lies Beneath (2000)
The Truman Show (1998)
No Country For Old Men (2007)
Untamed Heart (1993)
Highlander (1986)
Rocky (1976)
Silence of the Lambs (1991)
Adaptation (2002)
The 24th Day (2004)
Absolute Power (1997)
The Count of Monte Cristo (2002)
Greystoke: The Legend of Tarzan, Lord of the Apes (1984)
One Hour Photo (2002)
etc. etc. etc. There are too many to name them all.
Television
Breaking Bad (2008-2013)
Quantum Leap (1989-1993)
Justice League: The Animated Series (2001-2004)
X-Men: Evolution (2000-2003)
Lost in Space (2018-2021)
Stargate: SG1 (1997-2007)
Smallville (2001-2011)
Supernatural (2005-2020)
24 (2001-2014)
The Walking Dead (2010-2021)
Dexter (2006-2013)
You (2018-????)
Locke & Key (2020-????)
Lucifer (2016-2021)
Arrow (2012-2020)
Spider-Man: The New Animated Series (2003)
Big Bad Beetleborgs (1996-1998)
Mystic Knights of Tir Na Nog (1998-1999)
etc. etc. etc. There are too many to name them all.
Books
"The Postman" By David Brin
"The Groucho Letters" By Groucho Marx
"Mosquitoes" By William Faulkner
"Scruffy" By Paul Gallico
"The Outsider" By Albert Camus
"The Everlasting Man" By G. K. Chesterton
"Notes Of A Native Son" By James Baldwin
"Twenty-Thousand Leagues Under the Sea" By Jules Verne
"The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn" By Mark Twain
"Go Tell It On The Mountain" By James Baldwin
"Everville" By Clive Barker
"Orthodoxy" By G. K. Chesterton
"The Adventures of Tom Sawyer" By Mark Twain
"Heretics" By G. K. Chesterton
"The Black Count" By Tom Reiss
"The Fire Next Time" By James Baldwin
"Firestarter" By Stephen King
"Go Ask Alice" By Anonymous
"The Black Tulip" By Alexandre Dumas
"The Cider House Rules" By John Irving
"Solomon Kane" By Robert E. Howard
"The Devil Finds Work" By James Baldwin
"The Count of Monte Cristo" By Alexandre Dumas
"Armageddon In Retrospect" By Kurt Vonnegut
"Either/Or: A Fragment of Life" By Soren Kierkegaard
"The Sickness Unto Death" By Soren Kierkegaard
"The Hobbit" By J. R. R. Tolkien
"Thus Spoke Zarathustra" By Friedrich Nietzche
"A Princess of Mars" By Edgar Rice Burroughs
"The Wind In The Willows" By Kenneth Grahame
"Long Walk To Freedom" By Nelson Mandela
"The Return of Halley's Comet" By Patrick Moore
"Twice-Told Tales" By Nathaniel Hawthorne
"At The Back of The North Wind" By George Macdonald
"Love All The People" By Bill Hicks
"The Art of War" By Sun Tzu
"Treasure Island" By R. L. Stevenson
"The Rise and Fall of The Third Reich" By W. L. Shirer
"The Water-Method Man" By John Irving
"Reminiscences" By Thomas Carlyle
"The Hellbound Heart" By Clive Barker
"The Scarlet Letter" By Nathaniel Hawthorne
"Sonny's Blues" By James Baldwin
"The Call of The Wild" By Jack London
"Sleeping Beauties" By Stephen King, Owen King
"The Undiscovered Self" By Carl Jung
"Essays" By Francis Bacon
"Tropic of Cancer" By Henry Miller
"The Prince and The Pauper" By Mark Twain
"Lady Chatterley's Lover" By D. H. Lawrence
"A Month of Sundays" By John Updike
"The Greek Myths - Vol. 1 & 2" Tr. by Robert Graves
"The Trial" By Franz Kafka
"The Island of The Day Before" By Umberto Eco
"Look At Me" By Anita Brookner
"Metroland" By Julian Barnes
"The Iliad" By Homer
"Dr. Demarr" By Paul Theroux
"Psychological Types" By Carl Jung
"The Poetic Edda" Tr. By Carolyne Larrington
"Social Dreaming" By W. Gordon Lawrence
etc. etc. etc. There are too many to name them all.
Heroes
Me, Myself, and I, but in the order of I, Me, then Myself. Myself always comes last. Get that Bronze statue. Gold and Silver are taken. It is the story of Life. It is time now you accept that.
About me: “The first is to be kind. The second is to be kind. And the third is to be kind.”
~ Henry James, on the three things that were very important in life
Don't let the above quote fool you. I didn't copy and paste it there because I view this platform as an outlet for authenticity and therefore over-seek respect from strangers on the basis of trying to fit in. I'm not here to sell myself or you. I get what you'd think about that statement, but THIS is true. I'm here to network (when the time comes) in order to advance certain ideas I want to realize, which are more technological and ideological than sociological. Sorry. It is what it is.
If you're looking for a relationship, there are plenty of other girls on here. I scrolled down and was surprised, but I guess I shouldn't be. Self-creatives flock to retro. I'm here because I clicked a link on Reddit. Never knew this place existed before a few hours ago.
The time here (NOW) is 11:26 PM and it is Thursday, the 9th of December, 2021.
"About Me" is always difficult, and why should I come up with that? Why not pass it over to the universe? Hey there, God, what do you think about me?? Am I > or < Niagara Falls??? Over? Really?? 'Cos I never get that WET??? I just sprinkled myself with my garden hose, but you weren't watching. You never WATCH ME. You always watch everyone else, but you never WATCH ME. You don't even blink. Typical.
Honestly, if I were about to be "about" something it wouldn't be myself. I just couldn't fathom that. When I talk about films the film is of topic. When I brag about all the books I might read the book is of topic. When I tell you I really like this song it's not because I fit in with a demographic it's because it's well put-together. That's what I care about. Call me Zeus Cloudgatherer. I'm not gonna lie. People what know me know I take things once they're fully assembled (if they're being sold). That is what you call SMART, okay? If I'm in front of a prostitute (I've never stepped foot), but if I'm in front of Honey, or Ginger with the alphabet, I am not buying anything that ends in "worth," got it?
That's for all those GUYS on the red pill parade.
I'm on the other parade called sobriety from emotional agreement and/or validation. If people hate me because I touched some Caramilk Chocolate today it is what it is. I don't understand what's with the hate. I mean, it's only (actually) chocolate, but whatever. I can't help those singing the blues if they're singing the beige.
Anyway, that's enough about me. For more, just ask. You don't need to be polite. After all, I'm here to network upon certain times and not all the time. I can shoot the manure. WHAT I DO ASK is that you BE GRAMMATICAL and FORMAL at best. I understand English isn't some people's first language, but GIVE IT A GO.
With that said, take this:
"Many rivers to cross and it's only my will
That keeps me alive
I've been licked, washed up for years and,
I merely survive because of my pride."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QvBEpwcGM2o
(The lyrics above are from the song "Many Rivers to Cross" By Jimmy Cliff. I left a link if you want to listen).
Who I'd like to meet: I'm receptive, but only if you're cool and get that I'M JUST HERE TO FURTHER MY IDEAS. If you're lame, dose up. People need to be entertained. And I recommend muffins, not fentanyl.
Mother Muffin: "Get some muffins QUICK they're runnin' out!"
Me: "I've already got ten in my mouth."
Mother Muffin: "You've got more holes. Fill holes."
Me: "I call every hole my mouth."
You: "What the what???"
Me: "Please, you misunderstand. By "every hole" I'm talking about my metaphysical body, my avatar."
[Covers Webcam immediately]
You and Mother Muffin: "OF COURSE."
Okay. I just called to say when you Go the Distance you Feel the Rush. I had to tell you this, because that's what I these days. I go places far away and get excited in people's faces. It's BEST thing EVER. I want you to know. I'm Gonna Keep On Talkin' To You.
You are moving with the rhythm, Wild One. You are running effortless with the pink wolves that are having fun tearing up a golden chocolate bunny rabbit. I Am in AWE of YOU.
I found a rock and I threw it. It was a bad throw, though. It landed on my hand. I don't know when I'll get the hang of this. Can you teach me how to throw like you? You seem to be an expert.
We are all falling short in line. That's why it's so easy to cross the lines. DO YOU HEAR ME? I am talkinf about LINES, you know. LINES are all I have on my mind. I draw them with wiggles, because that's a LINE I won't break. ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME? Do not cut in line.
I am a pretend warrior about to slay you. [Makes slaying gesture.] With Sword in Hand, I challenge yout to a great battle of make-believe. Are you up for the challenge? I am prepared to let you win AND BEST ME in reality, which is NOT REAL to me at all. GRAB YOUR SWORD.
Don't be afraid.
