Call me J. I hate my real name. I’m from Cleveland, OH. I am 27 years old. I am an extreme introvert, I am quiet and very shy, I have social anxiety and am very self-deprecating. I have a weird and dark sense of humor and I LOVE puns. I like to think of myself as an Atheist. And I am straight. I have a black, domestic short-haired cat named Cici that I adopted from a shelter back in 2015 and she is my daughter ♥
I am the youngest child out of 3. I am also the accident/mistake of the family.
I have an older brother who is 44 years old and an older sister who is 38. Both are married and have two daughters each. My brother has a 19 year old and a 15 year old and my sister has a 14 year old and an 11 year old. I am more close to my sister than my brother.
I lost my father, my best friend, on September 12th, 2017 after a long battle with congestive heart failure and type II diabetes. He was diagnosed in 2008. He was a Vietnam War veteran and extremely good with computers. He was 69 years old, a little less than a month away from 70.
I have no interest in dating or getting married and having kids. After witnessing how relationships "worked” by watching my sister argue and fight with all of her exes constantly, it turned me off on relationships. I hate arguing and fighting and refuse to take part in it. If there is a problem or issue, I avoid confrontation as often as I can. Love doesn’t exist. It’s all imaginary. Also what’s the point of “falling in love” if it’s all temporary and we all die in the end anyway?
Also I tend to push people away if I feel they are getting too close.
I do not identify as a “man” per se. I DO identify as a male, but I do not do the stereotypical things a “man” does, like watch sports, drink beer, etc. Call me a dude or a guy, not a “man”.
As a kid, I barely had any friends and when I managed to make one or two friends, we ended up moving away. I've never had much luck making friends. Nobody wanted to take the time to get to know me or anything. It bothered me for a while, but I've gotten used to it. I'm not worth it. I'm not worth taking time to get to know. Friendship is overrated anyway. It's like love: fake and imaginary.