The people here have impacted my life, greatly. And I wouldn't trade them for the world. They are what make me complete.
My Friends Are The Best Family I Could Ever Ask For.
You Hurt Them, I Fucking End You. Got It?
As I clearly just stated. My friends are my family. Which is good, because I don't really care much for the real family that I have, there are a select few that I do. And there are only a select few of my friends that I actually consider family. I could sit here and write about every single one of them individually. But the truth of the matter is, I'd just be basically writing the same thing over and over again. Sure, there are some differences, and I will get to that after this. So there's not a single doubt in my mind for letting any of you as close to me as I have. And I don't let anyone close to me anymore, I have my reasons why, and all of you know them. And every single one of you has never run, from me when others have... Because you've all seen me at my worst but you all stuck around when it scared everyone else away. And when I'm at my best all of you are there to just add to it and just make everything feel so right. And when it's like that and I have all of you around me, I can't help but feel at peace with everything. The world. Life. Happiness. Every single one of you at one point or another have made me the happiest girl in the world, actually you all still do. With the years you've all put up with me, whether it had been depression, problems at home, problems with people, life throwing me a curve ball that I couldn't handle, me being a stubborn bitch... or even when I'm being stupid and over reacting to everything, You were all there for me, and never gave up on me when it felt like it was impossible to help me feel better. All in all, I don't know what I would do without any of you anymore. Life with out any of you, it's simply not an option anymore. And that's the way I want to to be. Maybe one day there will be a day where we drift a part, or you don't want to talk to me anymore, Or (most common) I piss you off and that's it we are done. What ever happens, I will never stop needing you. I will never stop wanting you around. You are all my family, and I love you more than life itself. Without you, my world falls apart. You are all what keeps me sane. Meeting all of you, is the one thing in life that I am thankful for. I know that for as long as I live, Never will I ever regret having any of you in my life. At no cost, will I ever leave any of you, because I know you are all I need to get me through life. I love all of you, you all have a piece of my heart, that no other could ever take from you, nor could anyone ever replace you. ♥ So, I need all of you to promise me something here.... Don't ever leave me, and don't ever let me be so stupid as to let you leave my life. Because you all know, this stubborn bitch will go kicking and screaming to do what ever it takes to get you to stay. I love you. And thank you for all you do for me, and have done for me! ♥
Castiel. Rachael. Jordy. Kayla.
So, as I said above, I love each of you for many different reasons. This is the part where I'm going talk about each of you individually. Because I've already states why I love you all for the same reasons. Now it's time for the differeneces. But no matter how much or how little I write about you girls, and guy!♥ I will always love you all the most over anyone in my entire life. Because without either of you, I would not be who I am today, and without some of you, I wouldn't be here at all. And I think that's something I should address and thank you separately. So, here it goes!
Castiel ;;Where do I even fucking start with you? Holy fuck man, in the time I've known you it's been a fucking blast. I have never let myself trust anyone as fast and easy as I let myself trust you. I loved taking my time and getting to know you, and you won over the title as my best friend. No matter what, you've always been there for me to hold me and be my shoulder to cry on. And you've also been the hardass I need to kick my ass back in gear over the things that I've been stupid to let get to me. And there have been times where you've full out told me that I've been stupid to let some things get to me, and even then you've helped me through it. Castiel, you've seen me at my best, and you've defiantly seen me at my worst, and you still haven't run. And that's something I hold dear to me. And you are so important to me, that losing you isn't an option. Though, ever since I met you, it never has been. Sure you and I may have our differences every once in a while, but the fact that it never changes anything between you and I, is something that I love. Another thing I love is that I've basically shown you just about every side of me there is. And you have never judged me on anything, not my past, stupid choices I make. But no matter what you have always been by my side. And for that, I love you very much. And thank you for all that you have done and will do for me ♥
Rachael ;;Oh girl, I don't have as many memories with anyone else as I do you. Our long talks, our serious talks. Us staying up all night just making each other laugh till it feels like we are gonna piss our pants. Life doesn't really get better than that. Neither does friendship. You've been my best friend since I was 14 or 15, and knowing you has been nothing less of phenomenal. You have been there for me since day one. In all honesty, you are the reason that I'm still breathing. You are the reason I'm still alive. All the stupid shit you talked me out of when we were kids, would have eventually ended my life in the long run. And I am ever so grateful for that. You know me better than anyone, which is good. Because that means you always know what to say when I need advice, or need help. Or just plain need someone to talk to. You've always been there right away. But nothing could ever top you saving my life ♥ You are seriously the most amazing girl I have ever met. Our friendship, is nothing compared to other friendships others have. People look at us are think to themselves "I wish I had a friendship like theirs". Yes, that's how epic I think you and I are. You're always there for me, and there have been times that I've been there for you. And really, nothing will ever top the new years you and I spent together... Where you became my Slobber Monster, and I became your Wal-Mart Bum. There ain't no one brave enough to fuck with us!♥ No matter what, I know that I can tell you anything and everything and I will never be judged. You've seen me for who I really am, and you still want me around. Rachael, i love you so much. Thank you for all that you have done for me, and all that you do for me! ♥
Jordy ;;Oh girl, I don't even know where to think of starting when it comes to you. How about the fact that it feels like we've been friends since we were in diapers. But, you and I know it's only been like 5 or 6 years now. But, Jordy, you have been there for me since day one. The things you have helped me through, I know I wouldn't have been able to pull through alone. I'm glad you were there for me when you were, because if you hadn't I know I wouldn't have pulled through the same way I did. The things that I'm able to tell you, I just feel so comfortable around you that I never have to second guess the things I'm gonna tell you. Because I know no matter what you love me for me. The things I talk to you about, I should probably tell my parents about, or maybe even talk to a psychiatrist about... But I don't, because I have you. Jordy, I've told you this before, but I'm going to put it here for the entire world to see. You have practically been raising me from the moment we met. You've been a better parent to me, than my real parents ever were. You are my mother. My father. My sister. My brother. My soul mate. My best friend. And my everything and more♥. And you need to know that no matter what, I will do anything for you. You have had one of the single most biggest impacts ever on my life. And I know I wouldn't be the same, or become the woman everyone knows me to be now, had I not met you. And for that I thank you! I love you so very fucking much!
Kayla ;;You have been there for as long as I can remember as well. And I'm still at a loss of words when I write about you. You left me once, and that was painful enough. So now, I don't ever want to lose you again, after you spent such a long time looking for me. Kayla, I know I put you through a lot, with you helping me and me not taking advice, and me getting bitchy and pushing you and others away. But the fact of the matter here is, you always fought to stay by my side. You never had a thought about leaving me again, and I can't thank you enough for coming back into my life when you did. Kayla, you are my go-to-gal. I'd have probably gone completely mental by now had it not been for you for putting up with how stubborn I can be. And I love you so much for that. You've shown me that it's okay to get hurt sometimes, because in the end it is what's meant to happen if something good is to come from it. I know you get super protective of me, but you do all your friends. And you know what, it's really comforting. Because I've never had anyone be so protective of me before. And I really like it. Honestly, Kayla, you are one of the greatest people I could have ever met. And without you, I'd be lost. Really, I would. So thank you for fighting as long as you have to stick around for me. Because if I ever lost you, then it would be my turn to start fighting. Because like I said, I lost you once, I'm not gonna lose you again. I love you so much!♥
Brii. Nate. Austin. Kaelen.
Brii ;;Well, let's get one thing straight here, I love this girl more than I love anything! And I don't know what I would do without her in my life. Brii you have been there for me since day one, and you have helped me through so much, I don't think you really understand what you've done for me. I just need you by my side, forever!♥ I hate how people think they can walk all over you, but you make me proud by not letting them. And I think that is totally something to look up to. And I do look up to you. You are one of my role models. Brii, you're a very beautiful person, and don't deserve the bullshit that people throw at you. Your personality is completely mind blowing in the most perfect of ways. And you are the kindest, most sweetest person I have ever come across. I love how well you and I get along. And I wouldn't have it any other way darling. I want to thank you for being there for me, and for everything you've ever done for me.♥
Nate ;;Omg, I don't even know where to begin! But what I do know, is that you basically came into my life at the most perfect moment possible. You are constantly making me happy, and smile and gaah!! You are so sweet and kind, and caring♥ You seriously never fail to make me feel better. And the best thing is, you do this without even knowing you do. And when I see your name light up my phone, because you texted me... my face instantly brightens up with a smile. Nate, you make me all asdfghjkl;♥ And I've never had this feeling before. When we talk about how warm you are, and how freezing I am, it makes me smile because you always say you can fix that and that you want to cuddle me. And when you said we were perfect for each other, omg I fucking melted. Then you even admitted to me that I made you blush, I know of NO man that would ever admit that. So just hearing you say that, made me feel fucking amazing! And I love that we can talk about anything or about absolutely nothing.. You have deff caught my in the best of ways possible!♥
Austin ;;My god, I have known you for years, and I can still remember the first day we met like it was yesterday. I have so many memories with you. All of them fucking fantastic. In summer of 2012, I did something very, very stupid... I hurt you.. And it eats me alive everyday, because I completely hate myself for it, I really do. But enough sad shit, this space if for happy things. Austin, I'm always at my utmost happiest when you are around. Whether we are goofing off and tickling each-other... Or I'm kicking your ass because we are wrestling. ♥ Just being around you is so much of a fucking blast, that I never want you to leave. I just wanna talk you 24/7. But I know I can't 3 But it's okay haha Austin you've been my best friend since day one. And you've been my family since then too. And you know what, besides what I did to you, I've loved every single fucking minute of it! I love you so much. Please don't ever leave? Kay?! ♥ Because if you do, I will kick your ass again in wrestling and make you stay with me. Because I refuse to ever lose someone as important to me as you! And you are deff important to me!♥ Always will be! :)
Kaelen ;;I can remember the day I met you, back in grade 6. I was in side the school before first bell finishing homework, and you thought I was a complete nerd. And I remember a few days later we had a lice check, and you got really sick and stayed home for a few days, and people spread rumours that you had lice and that's why you weren't at school. I think I was one of the few that didn't believe it. And the day you came back to school, we've been best friends ever since. You have been the only person to never leave my side. You've stuck with me through thick and thin, and have never left me hanging, or left me alone. And when stupid people tried to keep us apart, we found a way around it. Kaelen, you've been my best friend for many years, growing up with you has been nothing short of amazing. I know we but heads every now and again. But I don't know what I would do without you!♥ I love you so much! You aren't just my best friend. You're my sister. You are in fact my family. And without you, I have nothing. Thank you for always being there. And for always making me feel like I had a place where I belong. I know that as long as I have you, that I'm home, and I know where home is. You seriously, are everything to me. And I wouldn't trade you for the world. Thank you for putting up with me as long as you have! ♥ I love you! :D
This is where my hacks go. Want to hack me? Just ask. Not just anyone gets to hack me though. If you do, you should feel special. (:
The Best Friend Castiel ♥
I know it gets hard sometimes but I could never leave your side no matter what I say. If I wanted to go I would have left by now, but I really need you near me to keep my mind off the edge. If I wanted to leave I would have left by now but you're the only one that knows me, better than I know myself. All along, I tried to pretend it didn't matter that I was alone, but deep I know that if you were gone some day I wouldn't know which way to turn because I'm lost without you" ♥ "Friends are like stars, you don't always see them but you know they're always there♥ "Promise me something, Promise me we will always be friends?! Because, ever since you and I became friends, I don't know how I ever made it this far in life without someone like you in it. And to even think about losing you, it's simply heart breaking"
I pinky promise c: because they always seem to mean more
Best Friend-(Noun) Someone you can trust with your life, someone who has seen you at your best and your worst moments, and will be there whenever you need someone to talk to. There is a balance in the relationship of give and take. You feel so in sync with them that you can comfortably share your innermost feelings and thoughts. SHAUN!!! Oh my gosh here I am :3 hacking your page as promised :D SHAUN is the ultimate delight c: she completely fills the best friend code :3 You need to talk, she'll listen. If you need to cry, she'll hold you. If you feel lost, she'll help guide you. If you feel afraid, she'll comfort you. If you're feeling attacked, she'll be the one to defend you. If you need to lean awhile, she'll end you her shoulder. If you're feeling unsure, she'll be your confidence. If you're feeling alone, she'll be the friend that never leaves you ♥ your friendship is a specail gift ♥ Generously given :3 Happily Accepted :D and DEEPLY Appreciated! ♥ A real friend that hates the same Assholes I hate XD -coughs- no names -coughs- hahaha. People are just jealous of us because we could act retarted in public and they'd still love us XD You truely are an AMAZING person, nothing less :3 but maybe more ♥ I can't promise you that I can solve all your problems but I CAN promise you'll never face a sinlge one alone ♥ You're beautiful :3 Personality? Incredible. Our times together? Unforgetable :3 Our smiles? So memorable :3 Our friendship?? Non-replaceable ♥ I'm so lucky to have a friend like you ♥ People say best friends are hard to find, that's because the best one is allready mine! ♥ You're the kind of friend who wouldn't let me do stupid things alone x3 We've got SWAG! XD We walk it and we talk it :3 Loser, I love you ♥ and when the rest of the world walks out I'll still be here ♥ I'd never leave such a genuin person such as you ♥ I saw your face and was kinda like, "wow she's beautiful." but then the best part came when we started talking, and you turnd out to be this fucking amazing girl. I'm not sure where to start when it comes to explaining how epic you are. Not only have you been one of the only people who have stayed with me through my ups and downs, but you do it without any complaints. I don't understand why, but I sure am happy that I have you. I mean, we've had our problems...but we're getting better, and growing closer.I want to thank you for not giving up on me and for being as amazing as you are. I really hope that no matter what may come, we're always going to be best friends. ♥ HACK HACK HACK HACK HACK HACK HACK HACK HACK HACK (sorry trying to think here :D) HACK HACK HACK HACK HACK HACK HACK...... still thinking HACK HACK HACK HACK. Okay so its taking me a while to think of something amazing to put for you but yeahhh:)
We laugh over stupid shit and talk almost all night. We both have a weird sense of humor. And we always back each other up, I hope she knows that if she needs someone she doesn't need to look very far because I'm always there for her when she needs someone to talk too. Every friendship is unique, bringing out different sides of you depending on who you're with. But our friendship is where I feel so comfortable and free. I can just be myself and not worry about being judged. Not only do I feel comfortable just letting the friendship take its course, but I also feel energized to continue to be who I am around her. And our friendship wasn't rushed, we took time to get to know each other and it just grew from there. I'm writing this, not necessarily because she they told me too, but because I want too. I thought this was the least I could do. Where do I even start when I'm trying to talk about you? But I want you to know that no matter what I'm gonna be here for you, and that's a promise. Why? Because you deserve that. You deserve to be happy, and you deserve to smile. You have an amazing personality, and you know exactly what to say to make me laugh. It's actually pretty adorable.
You mean the earth, wind and sky to me. The whole world :3 I love every little thing you do for me ¢¾ without you I'd be soooo alone :3 Thank you for being the amazing person you are ♥ because I love you this way and wouldn't want you any other way :3
A Best Friend Is Like A Four Leaf Clover, Hard To Find And Lucky To Have ♥ I'm smiling cause Im your best friend, I'm laughing because there's nothing you can do about it c:< mwahahaha ♥ Always know that I love you, and I'll care about you, no matter what happens, you have a friend in me ♥ till the end ♥
Shaun, I'm not sure where to start when it comes to explaining how epic you are. Not only have you been one of the only people who have stayed with me through my ups and downs, but you do it without any complaints. I don't understand why, but I sure am happy that I have you. I mean, we've had our problems...but we're getting better, and growing closer. Shaun, I want to thank you for not giving up on me and for being as amazing as you are. I really hope that no matter what may come, we're always going to be best friends. ♥ shaun, you deserve to be happy. Someone as gorgeous as you wouldn't have to frown all the time. You should smile more, hun. Happy looks good on you. ♥
I haven't wrote one of these in a while and I think it's past due c: When I'm sad you're always there to make sure I'm alright. Last night was amazing. I had felt like arse all night and rather than sleeping you stayed up all night with me keeping me company so I'd feel better. It meant a lot to me. Truely. We haven't talked like that in so long c': it just felt great to catch up on old times. One of these days we have to sit down together and watch american horror story o: when the new season comes out we'll turn it on at the same time! ♥ ahaha. You do know you're my best friend right? Till the end. No matter what happens you'll always be my best friend. You're stupid, you fail, you're weird, you're not perfect. But. Thats okay. I'm like that too. We laugh at the most random things. You know my ugliest side. Even though we disagree sometimes, we never fight. I know you feel bad because I told you you annoy me, but it's okay. Everyone does occasionaly. I'd do anything for you. No matter what it was. You need something I'll do everything I can to do it for you. You count on me to be there and I do my best. But I have no worries that you'll ever leave me in the dark. We've been through so much crap together it's crazy. But we always come through on top c: Without you I'd be, well, normal cx ahaha ♥
"Friendship: is born at the moment when one person says to another 'What?! You too? I thought I was the only one'" -C.S Lewis This is my best friend
You break her heart I break your face
Shaun ♥ My best friend.
S; Is for Specail. A heart of gold
H; Is for Helpful. A friendly girl
A; Is for Affectionate. A gift from above.
U; Is for Unique. Unlike any other
N; Is for Noble. Pure pride and joy
Johnny Disaster's Details
January 02, 2012
Johnny Disaster Why is it, that I can play match maker for everyone else, and help them with their relationship stuff... But when it comes to my own, all I do is fuck everything up?
"Take me for who I am. Not who you think I could be. Don't try changing me, You're only setting yourself up for disappointment."
Twenty | Female | Bisexual | Taken | April 20, 2013
Hello. I'm Johnny. My real name is Shaun, but I like Johnny. It's the name that I was going to have before my parents settled on Shaun. So please, call me Johnny. Honestly, I could sit here and list a bunch of things that will either make you want to talk to me, or to just read give you a good laugh and and not add me, and go on with your wonderful life. But no matter what I write here, it will never be who I really am. I've never been good at writing these things, So I guess we will see how this goes. I guess you could say that I'm your average 20 year old woman, that is still growing up, making mistakes, and learning new things along the way. I don't know where my life will take me, but I hope it's some where nice. I feel like I'm always changing something about myself. Whether it be getting a new piercing, dying my hair a abnormal and ridiculous colour, Or changing how I dress. I've never liked they way I am, so I try to change it till I do. I have almost no self confidence, and no self esteem. But I was basically raised that way, so it's all I know. I'm trying to break that habit, because, it has pushed many people in my life away. I am no longer gonna be this pathetic girl. I'm no longer opening up my heart and getting no where with people. I'm done with letting people walk all over me, push me down, and treat me like shit. I do in fact suffer from Depression, Anxiety, and Panic. And if you can't handle me at my worst. You certainly don't deserve me at my best. I am blunt. I am also a cold hearted bitch. I will say what I want. When I want. Where I want. About anything and everything I want. I will not spare your feelings. If I hurt your feelings, I couldn't give any less of a fuck. And if you can't handle someone being that blunt, then I suggest that you don't add me. Or remove me from your friends list. Don't get me wrong, I am a nice person. As long as you stay on my good side, and don't piss me off or hurt the ones I care about. I am very deeply opinionated depending on what we are talking about. I will not put up with fake friends or fakes. I can be very shy at times, or very out there. I am in fact a very closed up person, I will not spill my problems to you if I don't know you. So when you ask me what's wrong, and I say nothing... Don't keep asking about it. When I say it's nothing, clearly I don't want to talk about it. So back the fuck off. My life is beyond fucked up, you couldn't even imagine it. But please don't ask about it, my life is nothing to discuss or any of your concern. I'm a sucker for someone with tattoos and piercings ¢”§ś!. I think they are super sexy on men and women. I myself, have 3 piercings. I have my spider bite, my nose. I guess you can say my ears, but I have them spaced. I, sadly, have no tattoos. I want some, but I always chicken out. I can sit there and have someone shove surgical steel through my face, But I can't sit there and have someone tattoo me. I know, I don't make sense. I love to make friends, but I'm also not very good at it. I am bisexual. But, there's a difference between and the rest of you. I don't give a flying fuck what you have between your legs. I don't care about your looks. What makes me fall for you is your personality. I could careless what body parts you have or what you look like. I sure and swear A LOT. And I really don't give a fuck if you are okay with it or not. :) Don't like it, unfriend me. It's as simple as that. Got it? Good. I am me. You are you. We are completely different people. Change me? I are you. Because it's not gonna happen. I am who I am because of the friends that I have. They are my family and have shaped me into who I am today. And I am proud to be me. You don't like it? Well, here's a big fuck you, and a middle finger Take me for who I am. Not who you think I could be. You want to know me? Like really know me.... Then I suggest adding me and getting to know me. And actually talk to me. By talking to me, you will get to know who I am. Not by reading this silly about me stuff. Music and friend are what get me through life. Let's get real. This is the internet, you know me through a computer screen, or a laptop screen, or even through the screen on your phone. You will never know the real me, or who I truly am. Got that? I don't know what else to tell you. Basically, if you want to know about me, all you have to do is strike up a conversation with me.
"I know it gets hard sometimes but I could never leave your side no matter what I say. If I wanted to go I would have left by now, but I really need you near me to keep my mind off the edge. If I wanted to leave I would have left by now but you're the only one that knows me, better than I know myself. All along, I tried to pretend it didn't matter that I was alone, but deep I know that if you were gone some day I wouldn't know which way to turn because I'm lost without you" :3
Shaun, I'm not sure where to start when it comes to explaining how epic you are. Not only have you been one of the only people who have stayed with me through my ups and downs, but you do it without any complaints. I don't understand why, but I sure am happy that I have you. I mean, we've had our problems...but we're getting better, and growing closer. Shaun, I want to thank you for not giving up on me and for being as amazing as you are. I really hope that no matter what may come, we're always going to be best friends. c: shaun, you deserve to be happy. Someone as gorgeous as you wouldn't have to frown all the time. You should smile more, hun. Happy looks good on you. :3
Dear Shaun, I haven't wrote one of these in a while and I think it's past due c: When I'm sad you're always there to make sure I'm alright. Last night was amazing. I had felt like arse all night and rather than sleeping you stayed up all night with me keeping me company so I'd feel better. It meant a lot to me. Truely. We haven't talked like that in so long c': it just felt great to catch up on old times. One of these days we have to sit down together and watch american horror story o: when the new season comes out we'll turn it on at the same time! c: ahaha. You do know you're my best friend right? Till the end. No matter what happens you'll always be my best friend. You're stupid, you fail, you're weird, you're not perfect. But. Thats okay. I'm like that too. We laugh at the most random things. You know my ugliest side. Even though we disagree sometimes, we never fight. I know you feel bad because I told you you annoy me, but it's okay. Everyone does occasionaly. I'd do anything for you. No matter what it was. You need something I'll do everything I can to do it for you. You count on me to be there and I do my best. But I have no worries that you'll ever leave me in the dark. We've been through so much crap together it's crazy. But we always come through on top c: Without you I'd be, well, normal cx ahaha c: "Friendship: is born at the moment when one person says to another 'What?! You too? I thought I was the only one'" -C.S Lewis
Shaun c:My best friend. S; Is for Specail. A heart of gold H; Is for Helpful. A friendly girl A; Is for Affectionate. A gift from above. U; Is for Unique. Unlike any other N; Is for Noble. Pure pride and joy