11/22/2020 01:59 AM  heyyyy whoopsies I left for a month again lol because I'm still busy but also I'm extremely depressed but uh I'm here again for a few days or longer than that, I have absolutely no idea I just wanted to come back here :> 0 Comments

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05/01/2020 04:56 PM  scene + emo kid survey!! :3 yeah i'm doing another 1 of these lol credit 2 lawrence here on friendproject!! :) NAME?: my name is ben B-) PREFERRED PRONOUNS?: he/him!!! SEXUALITY?: i'm bisexual :) DO U PREFER SCENE OR EMO?: tbh i prefer emo, but also, scene fashion ROCKS. WOULD U CONSIDER URSELF SCENE OR EMO?: yes lol IF YES, WHICH ONE?: both HOW LONG HAVE U BEEN AN EMO/SCENE KID?: well. i started getting rly into scemo sh*t in like january. there'z more info abt it on the alt survey i did a lil while ago. WHAT'S UR FAVORITE COLOR(S)?: I LOVE GREEN!!! green and pink go rly well together tbh. also green and black. WHO R U MORE LIKELY TO MAKE FRIENDS WITH-- SCENES OR EMOS?: idk. depends on what the person's like. FAVORITE ARTIST/BAND?:  GLASS ANIMALS! they're neither scene nor emo but i still love them. TOP THREE FAVORITE SONGS?: i can't pick favorites very well :((( MAKE A PLAYLIST FOR UR CURRENT MOOD?: lava lamp - cuco mr loverman - ricky montegomery self esteem - ajj something for your m.i.n.d. - superorganism american idiot - green day idk that's all i can come up w/ right now FAVORITE PLACE TO GET UR MUSIC FROM?: spotify lol DO U DOWNLOAD MUSIC?: no not rly.. DO U THINK "POSERS" EXIST?: yeah lol. but i also think y'all shouldn't just throw that around at whoever does something slightly different than you, bcuz i've seen ppl do that. tbh if you're having fun ig that'z all that matters. THOUGHTS ON "PREPS"?: they're not all bad lol. as long as they're not bitchy i'm cool w/ them. WHAT KIND OF HAIRSTYLE DO U HAVE?: uhh. it's short. it's kinda gotten 2 the point now where it'z got stuff peeking out from behind my neck lol. HAVE U EVER DYED UR HAIR?: yeah :) recently dyed my hair black HAVE U EVER PUT DYED PATTERNS IN UR HAIR?: no but that soundz rly fun!!!!! DO U CURRENTLY USE HAIR EXTENSIONS?:  no lol HAVE U EVER USED HAIR EXTENSIONS?: nope IF YES, WHAT KIND WERE THEY? ( CLIP INS, BEADS, ETC! ): n/a DO YOU WEAR KANDI JEWELRY?: i don't have much actual kandi but i would rly like to make some :(( i have a few bracelets w/ beads tho. 1 of them is just sumthing i found at goodwill lolz, and there's also a miku 1 my friend made 4 me. IF YES, WHAT KIND OF KANDI JEWELRY IS YOUR FAVORITE TO WEAR?: uhh bracelets lmao IF NO, DO YOU STILL LIKE KANDI JEWELRY?: ofc kandi is so cool!!!!!!! IF YES, WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TO SEE ON OTHERS?: idk. the masks some ppl make are hella rad KANDI BEADS ON SHOELACES, YAY OR NAY?: YAYYYY!!!!! IF U COULD, WHAT KIND OF KANDI JEWELRY WOULD U MAKE?: probably more bracelets. i luv bracelets!! IF U COULD, WOULD U SELL KANDI JEWELRY?:  i mean. i could use the money tbh. DO YOU COLOR YOUR NAILS?: rarely lol. i should do it more. IF YES, WHAT COLOR(S)?: black. that'z p much it. DO YOU WEAR MAKEUP?: nope IF YES, WHAT'S UR FAVORITE KIND OF MAKEUP?: eyeliner is cool but whenever i try it it makez me feel like sh*t lol FAVORITE EMO KID?: uhhh idk FAVORITE SCENE KID?: idk either lolz WHAT KIND OF WRITING STYLE DO U HAVE? ( HARDCORE SCENE, HARDCORE EMO, NORMAL, ETC ): on this blog, i mostly write hella scene uwu. but usually my writing is pretty normal. EXAMPLE OF UR EVERY DAY WRITING?: some excerpts from me texting my bsf: me talking about my birthday celebration on animal crossing: "my twin's doing her own thing now and AHDJDJ RODEO'S WEARING A SUIT AND TOP HAT I L OVE THIS MAN" me while we're talking about future plans with chicks: "bro. one day we should go hold baby chicks together I did that once at a Bomgaars and that was one of the best things ever also another time at some horse show I love chicks so much.. ..like I feel bad about it sometimes though because they didn't choose to get held but also THEY'RE SO CUTE :'((( and I'm gentle with them as much as I can manage" also I use a lot of text acronyms n sh*t like lol, lmao, wtf, tbh, and smh. R U OPEN TO FRIENDSHIPS?: yeah of course!! :) HOW DID U FIND FRIENDPROJECT?:  i was following a scene account on instagram i think and they made a post about it and i was like :OOOOOOO!!!!!!!! DO U HAVE ANY SCENE/EMO FRIENDS IRL?: no :( plenty of punk friends though IF YES, WHICH ONE? ( BOTH, JUST SCENE, JUST EMO, ETC. ): n/a WOULD U SAY U HAVE A LIFE OUTSIDE OF EMO/SCENE STUFF?: yeah lol of course IF YES, WHAT IS IT LIKE, IF UR WILLING TO SHARE?: i'm also very involved in the punk community. i am an anarchist, and although i've yet to figure out specifically what my beliefs are politically, i believe that the us government and capitalism in general is severely flawed and must be changed. i also do lots of art, and i plan on having a career in the fine arts later in life. my parents are divorced, and until recently, i've been switching houses every 2 weeks. i've been stuck at my mom's for like over a month now bcuz of quarantine, but honestly i prefer it that way lolz. i am, as far as i'm aware, a good student. i try my best, anyway lmao. i was called a gifted kid when i was younger, which, honestly, was a bad move, because now i have way high expectations 4 myself and i have a hard time actually doing my work lol. i have three cats, whom i all love. i'm currently a freshman in high school (i know 16 is old for a freshman, my parents held me back in preschool because they thought i needed the extra education since i was born prematurely.) i am a trans man (wow shocker) and i've been on testosterone for 5 months. uhh. idk that's all i can think of right now. IF NO, WHAT GOT U STARTED ON SCENE/EMO STUFF?: idk lol R UR FRIENDS/FAMILY ACCEPTING OR UR EMO/SCENE LIFESTYLE?: most of my friends are. my family is not lol. DO U WEAR UR SCENE/EMO STUFF TO WORK OR SCHOOL?: occasionally. i'm a little shy abt it tbh. i care a lot abt what other ppl think of me. not very punk rock of me, i know. IF YES, WHAT KIND OF REACTIONS DO U GET?: some compliments. also some judgemental looks and comments. which is funny, because my school is known for having a bunch of weirdos there. IF NO, WHY NOT?: n/a HOW DID THIS SURVEY MAKE U FEEL?: idk. it was p cool tho. ENDING COMMENTS?: a gr8 waste of time! :) thx man. 0 Comments

05/01/2020 02:19 PM  sum poemz 4 english just various poemz i did 4 english ig. might not actually submit sum of them but idk.   -Lily- Ah, the lily, with its colors so bright.  Comes in many shades, such as orange, red, or white.    Your beauty and vibrance brings me delight  As I gaze upon your blossoms tonight.    -Batter Up!- Sitting outside on the second wood stair  Was, holding a baseball, a lonely young boy.    I decided to go over there  With my bat, and we played ‘til he was grinning with joy.    -Clock- This dutiful object, he who tells time  The dark wooden clock perched upon my wall  Lets out a glorious, repetitive chime.    I let out a sigh and write my last rhyme.  This poem isn’t so bad, all in all.  I set down my pen and leave, for now it is bedtime.    -12:57 AM- Sitting in my dark room, all alone.  This place is starting to feel like a jail cell  As the music I’m playing surrounds me.    This mindless work I want to postpone  For all I can do right now is dwell  On the fact that I cannot yet be free.    -If Things Don’t Go As Desired- The corrupted king continues his reign  Still plaguing the land he rules like mildew.  He caused people so much struggle and pain  Yet he was kept on the throne despite what they’ve been through.    The people who oppose him he tries to contain.  The results of the problems he caused he tries to skew.  Only the highest class in the region gains  From everything done by him and his crew.    -Wishes- God, I’m so tired.  I’m feeling uninspired.  Lying in my bed.  Stuck inside my head.    Wish I could have what I desired.  Wish this work weren’t required.  Wish I could feel more than dread.  Wish things could be better instead.  (scrapped line: Wish he'd take back the things that he said.) 0 Comments

04/30/2020 12:09 AM  r8ing my new horizonz villagerz bcuz im bored lol h3r3 w3 g0000!! im just gunna g3t right int0 it lolz MOOSE (6.5/10) he'z 1 0f th3 2 vill4g3rz i st4rt3d 0ut w/... i us3d 2 (pr3t3nd 2) h4t3 him tbh bcuz h3'z l0wk3y ugly nd a dumb4ss f***b0y lmao but i 3nj0y his c0mp4ny. m0stly bcuz i lik3 2 m4k3 fun 0f him. 4ls0 bcuz h3 giv3z m3 l0tz 0f giftz. FLO (7/10) 4ls0 1 0f my st4rt3r vill4g3rz. sh3'z pr3tty c00l, but i'm n0t th4t cl0s3 2 h3r. nd sh3'z n0t k4tt, s0000.... RODEO (17/10) h3'z d3finit3ly my f4v3 vill4g3r 0n my isl4nd!!!!! h3'z s0 sw33t nd 4d0r4ble!! nd h3'z dumb, in a cut3 w4y. 4ls0 l0v3z f00d, nd l00kz lik3 h3 giv3z rly g00d hugz. i h0p3 h3 st4yz 4 a l0ng tim3. BONBON (8.5/10) sh3'z pr3tty nic3 nd rly sw33t 4z w3ll. sh3 wuz a bitch 2 m3 in new leaf, but sh3'z 4 l0t nic3r 2 m3 n0w lmao. idk h0w 2 f33l abt it. d3finit3ly a miku f4n th0, y0u c4n't t3ll m3 0th3rwise. KITT (9/10) sh3'z lik3 my animal crossing m0mm4! :) sh3'z s0 nic3 nd giv3z g00d 4dvic3 n stuff. sh3 m4k3z m3 think 0f my bsf. ♥ CHOPS (7/10) i d0n't rly c4r3 a l0t 4bt him. h3 h4z a v f4ncy 43sth3tic, th0, s0 th4t'z fun. nd h3's nvr b33n m34n 2 m3. NAOMI (4.5/10) i'v3 nvr rly b33n a big f4n 0f h3r. sh3'z kind4 b0ring. nd sh3'z 4ls0 h3ll4 ugly. lik3, wtf even iz ur m4k3up, 1st 0f 4ll. ADMIRAL (2/10) BR0 H3'Z S0 UGLY. ND N0T 3V3N IN A FUNNY 0R CUT3 W4Y. ND H3 DR3SS3S LIK3 A H0B0. ND H3'S 4N 4SS. G3T 0UT. i 0nly sumwh4t lik3 him bcuz my gf lik3z him. smh. CLAY (9.5/10) h3'z rly cut3 nd i lik3 him. h3 h4zn't b33n ar0und 4 vry l0ng, but h3'z fun 2 b3 w/ s0 f4r. GLADYS (9/10) sh3'z 4ls0 s0 cut3!!!!! i'm n0t rly th4t cl0s3 w/ h3r, but i'v3 s33n h3r in 0th3r g4mez nd i l0v3 h3r. pr0b my f4v3 0strich. (translation: here we goooo!! I'm just gonna get right into this lol. MOOSE (6.5/10) he's one of the two villagers I started out with... I used to (pretend to) hate him tbh because he's lowkey ugly and a dumbass f***boy lmao but I enjoy his company. mostly because I like to make fun of him. also because he gives me lots of gifts. FLO (7/10) also one of my starter villagers. she's pretty cool, but I'm not that close to her. and she's not katt, soooo.... RODEO (17/10) he's definitely my favorite villager on the island!!!!!! he's so sweet and adorable!! and he's dumb, in a cute way. also loves food, and looks like he gives really good hugs. I hope he stays for a long time. BONBON (8.5/10) she's pretty nice and really sweet as well. she was a bitch to me in new leaf, but she's a lot nicer to me now lmao. idk how to feel about it. definitely a miku fan, though, you can't tell me otherwise. KITT (9/10) she's like my animal crossing momma! :) she's so nice and gives good advice n stuff. she makes me think of my bsf. ♥ CHOPS (7/10) I don't really care a lot about him. he has a very fancy aesthetic, though, so that's fun. and he's never been mean to me. NAOMI (4.5/10) I've never really been a big fan of her. she's kinda boring. and she's also hella ugly. like, wtf even is your makeup, first of all. ADMIRAL (2/10) BRO HE'S SO UGLY. AND NOT EVEN IN A FUNNY OR CUTE WAY. AND HE DRESSES LIKE A HOBO. AND HE'S AN ASS. GET OUT. I only somewhat like him because my gf likes him. smh. CLAY (9.5/10) he's really cute and I like him. he hasn't been around for very long, but he's fun to be with so far. GLADYS (9/10) she's also so cute!!!!! I'm not really that close with her, but I've seen her in other games and I love her. probably my favorite ostrich.) 0 Comments

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03/21/2020 04:42 PM  new horizonz!!!!! Current mood:  ecstatic   i g0t animal crossing new horizons y3st3rd4y hehe!! itz s0 much fun & im h3lla h4ppy my f4ve animal crossing vill4g3r is k4tt!! i h0p3 i c4n find h3r in th3 g4m3 so sh3 c4n c0m3 liv3 0n my isl4nd! (juli4n iz 4 cl0se 2nd tho)   [translation: I got animal crossing new horizons yesterday hehe!! it's so much fun and I'm hella happy my fave animal crossing villager is katt! I hope I can find her in the game so she can come live on my island! (julian is a close second though)   0 Comments

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