04/17/2020 07:07 PM  30DC DAY 2 Hey guys, so it's currently gone midnight but I'm gonna set the time so it looks like I did this on the right day LMAO DAY 2 - Write about your relationship status. Welp here we go I am very very single! There was someone for a while but.. let's just leave it at "feelings were not mutual". I'm trying to move on healthily though and it's going pretty well! But now I have nobody to have cute dreams about and constantly rant about how much I fancy them. Guess that's better than constantly getting my heart broken or getting nonced on lol I guess I can't really be nonced on anymore, I'm 18... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH I'M AN OLD MAN!! D: While I would class myself as bisexual, I have a strong preference for guys and I've only dated a girl once. I was 13 so it doesn't count lol Soooo yeah any eligible and of-age emos want to chat me up then go right ahead xD   0 Comments

04/16/2020 04:46 PM  30 DAY CHALLENGE: BLOG EDITION!! ALSO DAY 1 So I thought I'd do the 30 day challenge, but I wanted to do it on here so it won't get deleted after 15 days. I'll try to do one entry every day, but don't get mad if I forget some days D: DAY 1 - Post a picture of yourself, and 10 facts about yourself. Well, I currently look like this: My hair is super faded because I'm going a different colour soon so I haven't dyed it for about a month. I'm actually surprised with how much it's grown in the last few weeks, I feel much more confident now I have enough hair to cover my fat forehead lol 10 facts.. hmm... is there even that many about me?? Let's find out! NUMBER 1!!! - I have 4 cats, named Lindt, Bounty, Sherbert and Dip Dab, and a pleco called Podge. They're all my babies and I adore them with my entire being ♥333 NUMBAH 2 - I have lived in the same house my whole life, in a seaside town near Bournemouth. There's nothing here and I've never really had many friends, but I'm moving away for uni. I'm not sure if I'm scared or excited, a little bit of both.. NUMERO 3 - I was brought up vegetarian by my mum, I've never intentionally eaten meat. It makes me really sick when I accidentally consume it. Like, really sick. Kids used to give me meat as a joke sometimes.. they stopped laughing when I projectile vomited on their new shoes. ^^ NOMBRE 4 - I've loved Fall Out Boy since my 6th birthday! I got a PS2 for my birthday, it came with SingStar Pop Hits, and that is where I first discovered the musical masterpiece that is Dance, Dance. (Also Bring Me To life by Evanescence but we'll cover that later..) 12 years later, I still love them, even if their recent works are of questionable quality.. Anyway, back to the story. I REALLY got into this one song (two songs, counting Evanescence), but I didn't know how to internet because I was 6, so I didn't really comprehend that there were other songs besides these two. I would run round my garden yelling the lyrics to Bring Me To Life, with my Halloween vampire costume on, and my neighbours thought I was possessed or some sh*t. I was such a cool kid. RUNNING OUT OF NUMBER WORDS 5!!!! - My best ever friend is a green dinosaur plushie called Gareth! He comes everywhere with me and I love him ♥ SIXSIXSIXSIXSIXSIX - I have an older sister, her name is Serena and she's four and a half years older than me. She actually introduced me to post-hardcore properly in the form of Pierce The Veil's A Match Into Water when I was 11, and that's what made me drastically change my style and music taste. To date, it's still one of my favourite albums, despite pedo drummer. *Len Goodman voice* sevEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN!!!! - My favourite fast food place is Taco Bell, I spend most of my money in there normally. It's just too tempting ;-; I normally order the 2 Tacos Supreme meal with the seasoned fries and Apple Tango or Cherry Pepsi Max, but the fajita burrito is also super good ♥333333 EIGHT (out of ten cats) - My main hobbies are writing - songs, poetry, books, anything - and music, whether that's going to gigs, performing, or just listening to my favourite bands and making playlists and mixtapes. I'm also an avid player of Sims 2, 3 and 4, as well as Minecraft. I tried playing Skyrim but I suck at anything where I have to fight things, my coordination and reaction time is terrible lol NINE (IN THE AFTERNOOOOOOON) (lol) - People who've been friends with me for a while know this, but Damon isn't actually my first name, it's my middle name. My first name is Patrick, but I have super bad memories attached to that name now, so I prefer being called Dami. Also, it sounds so much cooler, don't you think? ♥3 TEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - Wow, can't believe there's ten things of interest about me.. are there?? CAN'T THINK OF A TENTH ONE HELPPPP;-; Uhh......              ................                                 .......................F*** I literally can't think of anything I guess that's interesting? ... Sure, go for it I LOVE INVADER ZIM!!!!! IT'S THE BEST SHOW EVER! AND I LOVE ANIME ESPECIALLY HUNTER X HUNTER IT'S THE BEST BEST BEST ANIME I LOVE LEORIO WITH ALL MY HEART MY PRECIOUS BUSINESS BOY ok that was crackhead behaviour I apologise It's like 10:30pm and I already have square eyes from doing HTML stuff all day soooooooo I'm gonna log off ♥3333 KBYE 0 Comments

03/24/2020 06:23 PM  Writing a book? So I have been considering getting back into writing. When I was younger, writing poetry and stories was how I coped. It was nice to have something I was genuinely passionate about. Seeing as we're all stuck in our houses for the foreseeable future, it makes sense to me to pick it up again. I miss it a lot, even though I only used to write crappy gay fanfiction. Maybe I can write some actually good gay fanfiction now I've learnt how to English lol 0 Comments

11/12/2019 05:11 PM  JET BLACK NEW YEAR Current mood:  nostalgic The year is 2009. It's New Year's Eve. You're sat with your friends in your crush's bedroom,  listening to music and painting each other's nails. You laugh about the things that have happened in the 2000s, and question what the new decade will bring. As the clock ticks and the decade draws to a close, your crush pulls you to one side. "Let's ring in the new year with style, huh?" Your lips meet as your friends shout "happy new year!", clink their cans together and watch the fireworks on the TV. Away from the stress of your home life, your school, your future, you're happy. Life is simple. 0 Comments

11/06/2019 05:17 PM  I WANT TO GO BACK I go through phases of disinterest in this website, in alternativeness in general. It normally coincides with my depressive phases.This stuff makes me happy, but it also makes me different and gives people reason to mistreat me. Sometimes I'll see something and it makes every bone in my body ache to go back to a simpler time. I didn't care back then. Yeah, people bullied me but I didn't care. I was confident enough in myself to just flip them off and go on with my day. I had friends, music that I loved without abandon, I was happy. Now all I do is overthink. I criticise everything I wear, do, say, create until I hate it all. I am embarrassed of myself. I am ashamed to be myself. I wish I could exist in a space where there was only me, me and the things I love. I used to have that - I could escape to a fantasy world and do whatever the f*** I wanted with no consequences. But now even my dreams are haunted by the people in my life who ridicule everything I am.  I have no escape anymore. I want to be free, I want to go back to that happy place, but I can't. 0 Comments

08/01/2019 09:48 PM  Life is not very good Things at home get worse every day, it seems..  I'm sick of hearing how much of a disappointment I am.  I just want to feel loved, for once in my life, wanted for something other than a quick f***, needed, and not left in the dirt after I've served my purpose. I hate feeling so worthless, like my only job is to please others. I want my life and my individuality and my input to have value to people, but no. Obviously I don't deserve that. Obviously, somewhere along the line, I did something so abhorrent, so despicable, that the whole world turned its back on me. If my own f***ing parents, the people who brought me into this world, don't love me, who does? 1 Comments

07/31/2019 06:30 PM  It's been a while.. Lots has changed. I've been through too many guys in the last year, trying to fill the hole he left. I gave up on that and stayed single for about 5 months while I figured everything out and learnt how to be less dependent on having a partner. I'm with someone wonderful now, someone who gets me, who isn't abusive but understanding and empathetic, someone I can be open with and who I can trust to be open with me. Now that I'm not in such a bad mental state that I'm constantly scared of my partner hating me or leaving me over the smallest of things, I can truly appreciate the joy he brings to my life. I love him wholeheartedly. I got bullied a lot at college this past year, even by those I would consider my friends, about my style, the music I listened to, my hair, my interests, everything. So I changed myself. After being away from it all for a while, I realised that wasn't what I wanted and I didn't make that decision for myself. I'm more or less back to normal now, and I'm much happier. I'm learning how to not care what anyone thinks again. Things at home are.. difficult. I try to grin and bear it, but it's getting worse. Tensions are rising. I only have one more year to go in this hellhole before I can escape to uni and freedom. I'm thinking of going to Birmingham and studying songwriting/creative artistry! Things are looking up in that sense, at least.. It makes me happy to be back on this site again, I feel safe to be completely myself on here. 1 Comments

11/11/2018 12:53 PM  It's almost Christmas!!! (exciting thing??) Current mood:  jolly So I'm getting pre-emptively festive as always, and I decided I'd like to send Christmas cards to people!!! This is only available for people in the UK unfortunately, but I wanna spread Christmas cheer and all that seeing as I don't really have many RL friends anymore '^^ Comment on this blog post or send me a msg if you're interested though!!! 0 Comments

10/21/2018 04:12 PM  Anxiety.. I can feel that I'm getting less and less stable as the days go by. Multiple panic attacks every week? It's going to be daily soon. I can't deal with this for another year. It's gone on too long. I want to be happy and stable and independent and I can't. It's the worst feeling ever. 2 Comments

09/12/2018 12:58 PM  ANOTHER LIFE UPDATE Current mood:  blessed Ok so me and Tom didn't work out, it kinda died and he accused me of being a hoe(?) so yeah I'm not seeing him anymore xD I started talking to a wonderful wonderful guy :3 his name is Charlie and he's at uni in London, we've only been together a few days but I am mega gay xD I really hope that this relationship works because I really really like him.. I started college and I have friends! And I'm playing music with people every day! It's so much fun doing what I love every day it makes me so happy :3 I made up with an old friend and we've been talking again, which is nice. I'm fed up of beef, I never remember any of the details as to why it's even happening.. Yeah I just wanted to tell you guys about Charlie tbh I'm so so happy at the moment he is the most beautiful guy I've ever laid eyes on and I'm so blessed :') 1 Comments

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