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June 19th, 2019




Gender: Male
Status: In a relationship
Age: 19
Country: United States

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06/16/2019 10:50 PM 

Birthday

June 16, 2019


   Today is my 19th birthday. I certainly don't feel any older, at least not much. But I've definitely got back some of the joy that I lost, but the last year has changed me for the better. 
   I had a graduation party that was for both Kat and I last night. She didn't have much family here in Ohio. It also kind of doubled as a birthday party for me. We rented out a place for the night and I had a lot of fun. I really did. 
   Though life continues to throw a lot of stressful things my way, it's things like this that I finally have again. Reminders that things are going to be fine, I've made it through so much, and I don't have to be alone. Small things like this. Also, a perfect girlfriend who loves me, a caring family, and people who believe in me. I think God has more great things waiting for me. 

04/14/2019 02:28 PM 

Getting Somewhere

April 14, 2019 

   I haven't been updating on here much, have I? There's a reason for that. I've been busy, and, at least for the most part, happy. My life is finally starting to resemble a life worth living, and it's all thanks to Kat. She is indescribable, so I won't even bother trying with that. Never have I met anyone even close to her. There's so much going on, from working on improving this whole mess I got myself into a long time ago, to facing the fears I've had about growing up and being thrown into a life of responsibilities and stress that I know I'm not ready for, but I have to be. That's all I ever hear. It's like no one knows what it's like to go through what I have to. If I could be ready I would. So anyway, I've been too busy living in the moment instead of talking about it online. I'm still on here though.
   Prom is in a few weeks, and I'm really looking forward to it. I'm trying to make sure I'm off work that night and the night before. So, that's another thing to be on my never-resting mind. Difference is, this is a good thing to think about, and it's just one of many things I have to look forward to, and distract me from all of the bad things life is trying to throw at me. So, its not all negative now, there's good things too. It's trying to focus on the good, and knowing that I'm not alone, I'm loved, and I'm taking back my life. I'm getting somewhere, and I won't have to go there alone.
   

02/28/2019 06:46 PM 

Ready To Live My Life Again

February 28, 2019

   Well, I saw my counselor a couple weeks ago again, and I'm so glad to be back. I've been so miserable for way too long, and I'm ready to start feeling alive, or at least better. There's so much I want...need...to talk about. I can't wait to go back, I need to schedule again. I needed this so badly.
   Work is so stressful, I don't know if that has to do with the way I view it personally, my bad social skills, being anxious, or what. Probably all of that. Either way, I hope it gets better. I want to see if I can change where I work, not get a new job, just change what I do there. I really want to.

01/30/2019 02:24 PM 

No School Again

January 30, 2019

   Figures. I was excited to see Kat but school is closed today and tomorrow because of very cold weather. It's -4 out now. I think she's coming over this weekend though, so I'll get to see her after work that night. 
   I've been needing counseling again, and I intend on going back eventually. There's a lot I need to work on regarding my thought process and stress. I constantly worry but I have no energy. It's been like this for so long and I hate it. I miss when my mind was on my side.

01/23/2019 12:16 PM 

Really Bored

January 23, 2019


   Ok, so nevermind. I didn't see Kat, and I still haven't seen her yet, school was closed all week up to today. I miss Kat haha. But hopefully I'll see her tomorrow. 
   Also, the snow tubing plans were cancelled. It would have been fun but it's fine. This week is going pretty fast. It's also really boring. That's why I decided to type this out to have MAYBE 3 people. I use this almost as a "diary" in a way. Something that isn't worth reading but I type stuff in here anyway haha.

01/19/2019 05:18 PM 

This Month

January 19, 2019

   I never have much to say, but I'll try. This month is going pretty decent. Not too bad actually. Kat should be over tomorrow if she can. Also, she and I going snow tubing with her family next Saturday. I'm glad I'm not working that day. I wouldn't want to miss that.
   Speaking of work, I got a raise from $8.50something an hour to $10.00 an hour. But lately I haven't had many hours. Still, it gives me a break and some time to calm down.

12/31/2018 04:47 PM 

New Year's Eve

December 31, 2018

   Well, 2018 was...something. There were some good things, and some (really) bad things. But those things in one way or another have shaped me. I learned a lot from this year. Now, 2019 will be the year I get my life back on track. I want to live without worrying constantly, and I know that with the loving presence of Kat, I'm not alone.
   Speaking of Kat, she's going to stay at my place for a while tomorrow. No better way to spend the first day of the new year than with her. She is my everything, and I love her so much. I haven't seen her since the 22nd. She and I are both ready.

12/19/2018 07:35 PM 

An Update I Guess

December 19, 2018


   It's already the 19th. Time is going so fast, especially the last few months. I'm excited for this weekend. Kat is coming over to my place Saturday night. I love spending time with her. 
   Winter break is coming up and I really could use it. I really hope that I can lose some of the stress I've been under for a while now. Then it will be New Year's Eve already. Time is flying.

12/04/2018 07:47 PM 

What Time Has To Offer

December 4, 2018


   So I haven't been on here a while. There's a lot to catch up on. It' been an even longer time since I've updated my blog. But I had nothing to talk about besides how my life has lost all of it's fun and I was lonely. But something happened recently. Something I thought of every day but never expected. Someone.
   In the time I was gone I met a girl named Katarina. She complimented my hoodie with the ribcage and heart on it one day while walking in the hallway at school. Once we got back from break we started talking more and more. And for what feels like the first time, I was on the same page as someone. We found a sense of happiness in each other that both of us were missing. There's this feeling of safety. Yesterday we "officially" started going out, even though it felt like we already were. Everything about her just feels right. 
   I won't mention a certain name I used to anymore. I'm actually disappointed in myself for even referring to her in December. She obviously wasn't worth the worrying she put me through. I don't care anymore. Her name will never be mentioned on here again. I found someone who really cares about me. 
   My art class is going better. I finally started a project I'm really working on this time, and I still have ideas for my next ones. I'm still behind though, I really need to do what I can to catch up. Some stuff is still the same though. I'm constantly tired and I never feel rested. TheresT always something going on, and I just want a break from worrying.
   So, things are getting better. It's a long, terrible, tiring process, but in this case it's worth it. I learned to see people for who they really are, and how they change. Waiting is the only thing I can do. Now I have Kat, a girl who is there for me, and I can be there for her. This is what I needed. Now it's time to fix the broken life I saw shattering before me, but did nothing. I found hope in her eyes, and compassion unlike any other in her heart.

11/14/2018 07:48 PM 

Better, But Not By Much

November 14, 2018


   My life is still a joke. I'm used to it though. I'm finally (almost) over Trinity. But still, I get uncomfortable when I have to see her, especially with her new boyfriend. She really shouldn't be worth a thought but her treating me that way just shows who she really is. Or who she is now. I know she was different. It's her loss. Kind of. Well not really, but still, she knows what she did to me, and she doesn't care that she pushed me to the point of wanting my life to end. 
   I'm actually starting projects in art class. I have ideas and some motivation to actually do stuff in there now. Actually, I'm ready to start my next one, and I'm only starting the one I'm on. Its nice to do projects again, it really helps me to show the way I'm feeling in was words alone can't describe. 

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