Journal # 39
I know I haven't posted anything in my blog lately. I haven't really been on here much. I just updated my photos though. A lot has happened sense my last entry. I am doing much better now. I am still with the same guy I have been with for over a year now. We have been having a lot of ups and downs though. At times the relationship is super rough. We some how manage to get through it though even if we are at each others throats.
I have been reading books like crazy. As of right now I am reading a book called "Welcome, Caller, This is Chloe" and its super good so far. I'm really enjoying it. I've only read the first chapter and I already want to read more. I love those kinds of books. I can honestly read almost anything, but the ones that hook me in are my favorites. I even make a list of every book I have read recently in the last year or two. I couldn't remember them all though so I just wrote down the books that I could remember. From now on, I am going to write down every book that I have read. That way, when I am an old lady, I can look at the list and be proud of myself.
I've really gotten into this new TV show on Netflix. It's called "Paranormal Survivor". I really like it, although it totally creeps me out. It's basically a reality TV show where people who have experienced paranormal activity share their real life stories and experiences. I tend to like to think that ghosts, spirits, and entities don't exist. I know they are there, but I like to pretend that its not there. Lucky for me I haven't had anything bad happen to me like all of those people. Some of the stories they tell are super creepy and something I would never want to happen to me. I tend to scare easily.
I ended up dying my hair black again after I dyed my hair red. Honestly, I'm ok with it. I wish that I had kept my platinum blonde hair because it was so pretty and it was like, almost white and it took me forever to get it to that color, but I didn't. There's nothing that I can really do about it now though. The red hair dye was washing out of my hair and I didn't like the way that it was looking so I just covered it with black. I look good with any hair color though so I don't really mind it all that much. It's better than having an ugly faded out red hair color. My two favorite natural hair colors to have are black and platinum blonde so it works out. I will probably eventually go back to having platinum blonde hair again eventually, but I'm honestly more concerned about the health of my hair than the color. If I want to have long hair, I got to keep it healthy or else I will just end up having to cut it all off again due to damage. I really like the way my hair is looking right now anyways. My hair was super short four years ago and I've been growing it out ever sense then with hair cuts here and there. My hair has a tone of layers and I LOVE layers. Back when I had long ass hair I had layers. I can't stand it when my hair is all one length. Layers just make hair look so perfect and pretty.
For awhile there my confidence was gone. Took me a few weeks of telling myself to stop creeping on all these pretty bitches on Instagram that wear way too much makeup. I finally got my confidence back though. I was feeling so insecure that I decided to get my tongue pierced. When I got that done, I felt a boost of confidence. Guys practically drool over me now because I have so much more confidence with my tongue being pierced that I feel very confident when I take selfies.
More about the tongue piercing. I got lucky getting it done. I found out that I have a fairly shorter tongue than most people do. I had no idea that I did until the piercer made a comment about it. I had a lot of issues with the healing process because of it, but in the end, I yet again, proved that I can make it happen. Now my tongue is fully healed with a regular sized bar in. I do have a smaller ball size though than most people because its more comfortable and easier to talk. Plus, I don't like how big the balls are in general so it all worked out well for me having smaller balls. I can talk like a normal human being now. I also feel so much sexier and better about myself. It's amazing how one little piercing can effect someones confidence.
I started vaping again. I came to realize that it is so much cheaper than smoking cigarettes. I smoke about a pack a day. Plus I'm a huge baby when it comes to going outside and smoking in the cold. I hate the cold weather. F*** that! If I can smoke inside my apartment without it being an issue, then I'm going to!
I've been making new friends gradually. I have like 3 new friends now. It's really nice actually. I no longer have that negative ass Rheanna bitch in my life anymore. That girl was crazy. I don't know if I have said this before in a different diary entry, but this girl got drunk at my house and attacked my boyfriend and was being super rude to him. It got to the point where he had to defend himself and shove her to the ground to get her off of him. I offered her a ride home to be nice, but she wasn't having it. Ever sense that day, shes been a total cunt to me for no reason. If anyone should be hateful towards anyone in that situation it should be me and my boyfriend. I told my friends about what she did and they all said they weren't surprised and immediately took my side. That's not because we are friends though. Anyone would be mad if someone attacked their man. That sh*t isn't ok behavior. That girl needs some serious mental help. Shes got problems. Good riddance!