sometimes i wonder why i even decided to start interacting with people again. i was doing fine by myself
i give so much to her and i constantly get disappointment in return. i enjoy my time with her. it feels nice to find someone who doesnt judge you and enjoys hearing about your interest. she does that but sometimes it feels like she doesnt listen to the most important things i say. especially when it comes to my mental health. ive been so open with her about my illness, about what can trigger me. yet she constantly sets me off into a downward spiral. she puts things in my head, triggering my paranoia. i constantly isolate myself not only from her but from everyone around me bc of her actions. thanks to therapy, i havent been violent or manipulative, but shes honestly starting to drive me insane. thoughts are coming back and becoming more and more real.
i dont like it.
i want to talk to her. i cant let this keep going. i give too much of my time and energy, i dont deserve this kind of treatment from her.
i just dont know if its time to cut all ties with her.