i mean i don’t have a real band band yet, but so far i’m friends with two other guys who wanna start something, and they’re both pretty good at their stuff (drums and guitar) and i’m alright at screaming

we’re having ‘band practice’ on monday, and possibly saturday if we can, and i’m excited cause we’re probably gonna be doing mcr covers to start and i LOVE screaming mcr songs so much, it’s so fun! anyway, they say they’re horrible with lyrics but since i make poems i might be alright at it.. tbh if i can scream it i’ll sing it

anyway

i live in toronto and the music scene here is really really cool and big (i’m seeing a local show tn!) but there aren’t many bands that have a harder tone, most are mellow. what i’m trying to say is, if my band is more screamy and energetic, surely it would get attention... ? i don’t know, i think i’m just daydreaming a bit too much. 

in terms of crush stuff.. i have two right now but neither seems like they’d be interested in me, bummer. i keep having really nice moments with one of them (yesterday we went into a room and they played guitar really nicely and i just watched,, ) but i feel like they have some weird resentment for me. i don’t know.. i wish i didn’t feel this way for either of them, having unrequited love is very saddening and if not that, then just strange 

okay i’ll stop rambling now

can you believe my chem tix sold out in 12 minutes?!? crazy

ryan