April 14, 2019
I haven't been updating on here much, have I? There's a reason for that. I've been busy, and, at least for the most part, happy. My life is finally starting to resemble a life worth living, and it's all thanks to Kat. She is indescribable, so I won't even bother trying with that. Never have I met anyone even close to her. There's so much going on, from working on improving this whole mess I got myself into a long time ago, to facing the fears I've had about growing up and being thrown into a life of responsibilities and stress that I know I'm not ready for, but I have to be. That's all I ever hear. It's like no one knows what it's like to go through what I have to. If I could be ready I would. So anyway, I've been too busy living in the moment instead of talking about it online. I'm still on here though.
Prom is in a few weeks, and I'm really looking forward to it. I'm trying to make sure I'm off work that night and the night before. So, that's another thing to be on my never-resting mind. Difference is, this is a good thing to think about, and it's just one of many things I have to look forward to, and distract me from all of the bad things life is trying to throw at me. So, its not all negative now, there's good things too. It's trying to focus on the good, and knowing that I'm not alone, I'm loved, and I'm taking back my life. I'm getting somewhere, and I won't have to go there alone.