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Age: 27
Sign: Scorpio
Country: United States

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10/17/2018 04:02 PM 

Birthday Tomorrow
Category: Real Life
Current mood:  gloomy

Tomorrow I turn 22 years old. Everything has been completely shifting to a whole new era in my life. My little brother got his girlfriend pregnant a few months ago so I have a niece or nephew on the way. My brother is finally realizing all the horrible things are step mom did to me when I was a kid. My step parents finally moved out of the house I lived in since I was four years old to 19 years old. I had to cut my biological father out of my life. All of these changes are happening so abruptly and I don't know how to cope with it. My childhood is long gone. My youth is fading into the past. I'm an adult in his early 20s trying to find my place in the world and who I am as a person. I'm not what other people define me as anymore. I know this change is signifying that good fortune is coming my way now, but my whole entire life I was beaten down and treated like dirt. And now I'm suddenly finding the stability I craved for so long and it feels so strange. I never felt this before. At least my little brother and I are on good terms right now. Him and his girlfriend I'll address the child to my step mom as Jennie and not as grandma, and we will tell him/her that their grandma Amber lives in the sky until he/she is old enough to comprehend and understand what death is. That statement brought me to tears last night when I realized my niece/nephew will never meet their grandma or know how amazing of a person she was. We can only tell them from what we have known and experienced with our mom. It kinda hurts to face that. He also said the baby will NOT be around out step mom unless his dad/my step dad is there. I'm not sure about my step dad though. He reached out to me today to talk about insurance stuff. He hasn't said a word about tomorrow. Figures, he probably forgot again. He doesn't care about his adopted sons birthday. The family that's helping me right now is taking me out for a special dinner and drink tomorrow. I know I said I'm straight edge again, but one drink on my birthday won't hurt. I'm not drinking to get drunk. I hate being drunk.  

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