Nothing Will Ever Be The Same As It Was
October 10, 2018
It doesn't matter how decent my day is, the second I see her it gets worse. Every time I see her I feel sick. It's not easy. I can't just "move on". She meant everything to me, and I have never felt happier than when I was with her. Now she ignores me, wouldn't miss me at all if I died, and probably (no, definitely) doesn't care that she completely ruined me. She was different, I know it. She wasn't like this, right?
I wish this never happened. I want to feel at least some joy in my life again, because I haven't fully enjoyed a single day since summer started. I'm beyond tired, I'm miserable and every day is just reminding me of that.