Never Felt More Miserable
October 3, 2018
I want to die. I have not felt happiness since early June. Every day I wake up wishing I didn't. I'm lonelier than I've ever been. I have NO ONE there for me. No friends, nothing.
I started my project but it's not helping me feel better. It's a nice distraction but I'm still tired of living. I can't take it anymore. It hurts so much. It probably wouldn't hurt nearly as much if I haven't felt terrible all summer. It was all building up to how I am now.