"When Every Day Is A Nightmare"
(I'm sure it's all my fault),
I ruin every day I wake to.
I ruined myself,
I miss the way things were,
One minute ago.
I'm drowning in my own self-loathing,
I'm slowly getting more impatient,
(I can't get anywhere).
I'm thinking of a reason,
I should expect more of myself ever again.
It's nothing I'm not used to,
I'm only setting myself up for failure.
I'm only dying for the joy of it all,
Because it seems so much more fun than living like this.
I don't, no I don't want to lose it all,
I don't know if I want to lose it all,
I'm sure I don't want to lose you,
But almost everything else I could do without.