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i just like write random stuff here!! im just head empty /)^°^(\ no think!! ;P 

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If you'd have told 17 year old me back in 2007 that Myspace would be dead, facebook considered for "old people" and pretty much everything I knew completely flip even MORE I would have probably in not so nicer terms told you to get bent and I didn't believe you. I can more then like 99,9% garentee you could of given me the written copy of my life and I would of flipped through looking for stuff that sounded the best and just focused on that and been like "eh yeah thats nice" and carried on just assuming that great stuff would show up not even understanding all the inbetween sh*tty stuff you need to expierence before even HALF of the good stuuf even comes and even then sometimes your so focused on how hard the crappy thing effected you you don't even realize the good moment in front of you. 

Everyone is against everyone else. I just want to have a good time with people that just care about other people and send and give peace and want to just let people be happy and not angry. legit yall NO ONE CARES WHO IS CANCELLED FOR THE NINTH TIME ON TWITTER. IM TIRED I HATE SOCIAL MEDIA>> GOODBYE. But also hello friends project because im off that mess for a while thats to xAstrologicalx. ♥

feel like dying or whatevr :p

I am struggling so much in school right now. They assign us so much work that I cant even keep up with. I am currently failing algebra and am close to failing all my other classes. I have so many past due assingments. And my parents are so mad at me because my grades are slipping, and im uncomfotable with telling them that I barely have the motivation to get out of bed nevermind do all of this schoolwork. Anytime I try to talk about my mental health with my dad he invalidates me and basically tells me depression isnt real. Im slowly loosing interest in everything I loved, I quit the field hockey team because I was scared that I wouldnt be good, and that Id embarass myself. I turned off notifications for every app. Talking to people stresses me out, I always feel like im going to say the wrong thing so I just stopped responding to everyone. But then I feel bad for not responding because people are like double and tripple texting me and then I think to myself, I cant respond 3 days after they send the text, so ultimately I decide not to respond at all. Im slowly loosing all my friends and it sucks. I have one really close friend, but sometimes I feel like im annoying her and that she hates me. I know its just my anxiety getting to me, but I notice every single change in tone and when I feel like im annoying her I leave her alone, but then I get really sad because I feel like I have no one. She has alot of problems of her own so I try not to bombard her with my problems because I know she has her own to deal with. I just always feel so alone and like I have no one to talk to. Im in the process of getting a therapist, but its taking awhile due to covid. I have an idea of what I would be diagnosed with, because its really easy to self diagnose. But I feel like if I tell her what I think I may have, shell tell me I dont have it and then I will just feel stupid, which again is just my anxiety talking but idk.TW: self harm mention Im always thinking about death and I always have intrusive thoughts and my cutting is getting worse and worse and idk what to do about it. anyways if anyone is actually reading this lol, i love you, youre beautiful/handsome/attractive asf and you are worth it ♥

Hiii! Just testing out the blogging feature. This website is one of the coolest things I've stumbled across. I'm going through a big y2k phase atm so this is giving me life and watering my crops. I am literally in love with friend project. Anyway, that's all I have hehe.

idk what to say but hiiii 

Hey, just checking how this works, in my blogs I hope to write what I want, maybe like a diary type of thing, but only when interesting things happen to me or i can´t get something out of my head

Hi! I'm new here! If you're here from Wattpad (rosemaryrosary) then hello! 

lol im bored of looking for layouts so this is gonna be it until I log back in later 

completely forgot 2 mention dat i 

ive been searching for a rlly good layout 4evr now ughhhhhh

mmmm yes hello I just made this rn lol..