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Mood: Exhaustion
Current mood:
 exhausted
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I have never said this before in my life but I want summer to be over so fuking bad. I'm working more than I ever have; and sure that's partially due to my decision to get a second job, but I lost my school year job on-campus cause of Miss Rona. So I needed a more permanent job before the summer ended. Also, I was only working 20-25 hrs a week at my summer job before I got my new job, and then immediately after I'm working 35-40hrs a week. Not to mention everyone who I love and care about irl's lives have been going to sh*t. I'm not going to go into anything too specific for privacy reasons; but I'm helping my one friend get out of another toxic living situation (after she just got out of one at the beginning of quarantine) and getting her brother emancipated to take him with her, helping (and helped all day yesterday) my friend with a baby move from her current house (not her parents) because her stepdad is a despicable human being (if you can call him that), and my grandma is in the hospital right now because she had to have emergency surgery over a hernia and then she had a heart attack. I'm surprised I haven't been crying non-stop. Like I'm at the point where if I stop it all hits me and I have to take a break for like an entire day. Not to mention the sht with my car. I do not feel like getting into the couple hundred dollars it needs rn, so. Positives, let's end this on positives. I've had more time to study Korean since the end of my summer class (I got a B in it btw!) I am halfway packed to move into my new place and have my living situation and the where to keep my sht situation figured out for the week or so in between leases. My cat is almost completely leash trained and actually enjoys going outside for short walks now. My boyfriend who I love has been very supportive and helpful. If I survive the next month of summer, I can and will fuking survive anything. Like I know a lot of this doesn't directly affect me but like idk then y'all must not be a close with your friends as I am. No tea just my truth.
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blog, tired, bad times
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