Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, and grief
Just watching old episodes of the 1980's Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy series. These were so much better and more faithful to to the spirit of the books than the disappointing 2005 movie. What is with these Hollywood execs, or whoever it is that make the decisions, that causes them to utterly butcher the source material?
How can anybody actually make a bad adaption of HHGTG? It is incomprehensible to me that anybody entrusted to make an adaption of the brilliant, witty, hilarious and utterly captivating books of Douglas Adams could make a movie that is flat, boring and unenjoyable.
It doesn't matter, I suppose. These questions I am positing and topics i am discussing are inconsequential to anybodies life and completely vapid.
The truth is I started off the year 2019 with tragedy, I lost someone close to me and in order to distract myself and cope with the grief, I am burying myself in movies, TV shows, books, etc. and trying to lose myself in these and discuss the minutia of these. If this is what it takes to stop me breaking down in tears and becoming non functional from grief of my dead loved one, so be it.
I have always been fascinated by death, but that doesn't mean that I actually want anybody I am close with to die. I believe it is most likely that there is no afterlife, and that when we die, our personality and consciousness is extinguished, gone forever. So of course I will be sad and miserable to think that someone I loved dearly is now gone forever, no matter how long I live, I will never be able to see them again, speak to them, touch them, and I will not be able to do so after death either.
Although I don't believe in an afterlife, a small part of me holds out hope for some kind of positive afterlife, where I can see my loved ones again, and all of us existing happily together eternally, I cannot allow myself to think about this.
The reason I cannot allow myself to think of this is because if I do, I cant stop thinking of all the reasons it is logically or scientifically unlikely, (putting it mildly).