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why am i so disgaiosaitng

Had a couple typos on a status update. 

In Class it sucks so may be offline for a bit.

right now i wanna throw up

it's a f***ing self-destructive circle, im trapped and im just not killing myself by clinging to a dream that has no chance of being real.if i commit suicide, dead i can't see lee taeyong

every day i hate this life more. i wanna throw up and i feel pain all the time. How can i bear this?i get up and i only hear screams, screams all the time, i want to return all the food i have eaten. i don't want to be awake. i keep hearing screams all day, a lot of noise, nobody treats anyone well, i only hear screams. i feel so much discomfort that it accumulates in my chest, goes down to my stomach and causes gastritis.

i had not written here for a long time but that doesnt mean that my life has improved. every day is worse than the last

https://soundcloud.com/mjasi-28/sets/hs-drifter/s-paD2cUMTN7S

Don't say BLM if you support MSI.

It's been awhile since I've been on here and I forget how everything works lol

Just enjoying my first and only real free time in what feels like forever.In addition to working full time, I am now the carer for a sick elderly relative. It is so tiring. Don't get me wrong, I love this particular relative very much. But being their carer and working takes so much energy. I usually collapse into bed at night after everything is done and fantasize about an uncomplicated life.I really need to upskill, get a degree or something, but how am I to find the time to do that? If I took on any other committments right now I think my head would explode or I would die of a stress induced coronary.Work is even more stressful than usual. My coworker left because they couldn't stand my bosses fequent verbal abuse and now I am training their replacement, fun times! Oh well.Outrageous, outlawed, outspoken.

I've been talking to my study counselour about what I should do after I graduate this spring and it has made me think a lot about my future in general. My plans have changed a lot over time, like just at the start of the year I was dead set on attending this one school in Washington D.C but since my mom failed at applying for my US-citizenship I had to drop that idea...I really wanna study art/illustration abroad with my top pick rn being NCAD Dublin because of the location and affordability.At the same time, I'm not opposed to just moving to Portland, Oregon to be with Leo and just take some random art course there for that student visa... Future scawy...