Winter and Mingraines
Winter is officially here. It's snowing again here and it's cold, after we just had a ton of snow on Sunday and classes were canceled on Monday. I haven't been in classes all week and I'm afraid of what I missed and catching back up. Along with winter, I get migraines more often than I do in the fall, spring and summer. I get migraines from stress too, not just lack of sleep and tiredness, and weather. The winter weather, with the pressure dropping and the sun coming out suddenly sometimes, and the snow and rain, cause my migraines. And with it getting darker quicker, it doesn't help my seasonal depression and depression in general. With the sun coming out, it helps my depression somewhat, but at the same time, it causes my migraines to be worse if I have one. I can't win. I get stress migraines to. it goes from a headache to a full blown migraine within a few hours, and the holidays always cause stress, especially with my family. Family issues and there's a ton of unnecessary drama, plus the high expectations of buying gifts and hoping the person who I got it for likes it, and then the stress of returning it if they don't, and my crazy insane aunt who causes problems for no reason, except out of jealousy and her severe own issues, which she refuses to get help for and says she's fine and doesn't need help and expects people to bow down to her and act as if everything's perfectly fine and it drives me nuts. My family pretends everything is okay. when it obviously isn't. My extended family expects me to bow down and just pretend to like my aunt and my other brother's wife But i refuse. They both have caused serious problems and have somehow hurt me, either emotionally or not. So I refuse to bow down and pretend that they haven't done anything wrong. This is why the holidays are always stressful. But, the good news is, I've decided now that I'm not expected to buy gifts for certain people. A pro I've realized now is I'm not expected to buy gifts for people in my family I don't know well or don't wish to get gifts for. Which is fine by me.
christmas, emo, hoildays, family, stress