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(almost) everything i've been wanting to say
Current mood:
calm
happy three month anniversary! i don't really know where to begin LOL and i'm writing this on tuesday so it's not even our anniversary yet but whatever. this isn't really like a typical essay since i also just want to talk a little bit. i just wanted to say that i can't believe it's been three months and it feels like it's been so long. i wasn't really sure what i wanted to do as a gift, and you already know i like to do something random and over the top. so i found this website on tiktok and i thought it was a great idea. this was soooooo weird to make because it's from like 2010. anyways i've been talking about literally the most random stuff just now. but also, i hope you like the drawing. i don't really know how to draw boy hair but whatever. i also hope you listened to the song at least LOL, if you didn't it's okay as well. to continue on, there's so much i want to say but before i begin, thank you for everything. writing these types of things could get repetitive over a while but i'd rather just let you know everything on my mind. this is probably gonna be so long and you're going to hate me for writing this much LOL. anyways, thank you for being my friend, thank you for being someone who cares about me, thank you for being someone who actually loves me for once, thank you for making me feel better about myself, thank you for listening even when there wasn't much you could do, thank you for being my support, thank you for being my boyfriend, thank you for reassuring me, thank you for being with me all this time even if it's just three months, and the list goes on and on. being with you, i have hope that i'll finally be happy in a relationship. and we're both still young but being with you has just made my days so much better. i have something to look forward to. just having you around makes me so happy and i can forget about all the other things on my mind. even when i'm not feeling the best, when i'm talking with you, i don't have to worry about anything. i can be happy, i can laugh, i can talk to someone, etc. sometimes i wonder why was i so lucky to be able to find someone like you. i hope that i can be someone who can support you and care for you as well. you're my best friend, and we tell everything to eachother. i feel comfortable with you and i appreciate you and everything you've done for me. i've gotten to know you, and no matter what you think or anyone else thinks, you're an amazing person. your emotions are my emotions. when you're happy, i'm happy. when you're sad, i'm sad. and when you tell me about your mom or simply just stuff that makes you sad, it hurts me to know that you feel that way. because i know you don't deserve that, and to me you're someone i care about and i love and i don't want you to be sad. i want you to feel good about yourself and you should because you're everything i could ever want. if you ever feel sad, just know you can tell me anything. just because we're dating doesn't change how we were as friends. you can rant to me anytime, and i'll always be here to listen. i'll always try my best to comfort you, even though i might not be the best as expressing my thoughts. i won't judge you for anything. i don't always say everything i want to say but please know that i care about you. and i mean it. you've been very good to me, and i'm thankful for it. we're already at three months and as time progresses and things change, there might be times where we talk less and there might be times when we talk more. but no matter what circumstance, i have hope for our relationship. i think you're really smart and you know so much about me. we're so similar (because you copied me) and i'm happy to have you around. i hope i can make you as happy as you make me. my relationships don't usually last this long so i'm glad we've made it at least this far. yay milestone LOLLLL. anyways, yeah. i think that's all i want to say for now. happy three months, mav. i love you so much. :) omg these emojis r so cool - nicole
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