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i like some food but i don't like eating. i hope that makes sense. that feeling when you haven't eaten in hours, stomach growling n all, it hurts so much. but then that pain goes away and you're so proud of yourself that you didn't cave. it's sick how i think that's euphoric to me. it's sick that i miss being underweight cuz that's all im used to. it's sick that even if i do get to that point again, i'm still not gonna be content with how i look, like i'll never be able to love myself. i hate feeling guilty after anytime i eat something, whether it's good for me or not. i think i need help, but why should i even bother if im not almost dead with no meat on my bones? "i'm not sick enough" "that doesn't matter!" shut up. i only feel good about myself when i shouldn't and i only do things that make me feel good when i shouldn't do them. why can't i just loose weight normally? who am i kidding, even if i do it won't be good enough. nothing i ever do is good enough. i haven't even taken my meds yet. i've been lying to some friends so they think i'm getting better. i never thought i would get this way. what happened f*** :/ peace.

currently locked myself in the bathroom as its the only place i have with privacy. i just want to avoid my roommate and their draining energy !! i cannot handle it today !! :/

"sometimes it feels like nobody knows me at all."   "except me?" "especially you."

So, I just made this account and feel like an old lady trying to figure out things on here, haha ^^; Uh, let's see. I should see about how to make a fancy profile like I've seen a few on here.A lot of you have really cute/cool profiles! :DhMM I guess that's all I have to say really, for now at least ^^;Oh well! time to go play some Genshin Impact! owo

hello! my name is jupiter. i had an account here a while back but i didnt like it anymore so i just got a new one.

Sooooooooo, I am going to talk about what I want to wear to my first day of school because I can. I have a pair of black and white sort of plaid pants I am wearing with a black polo shirt that is older than I am. And converse. I might wear a choker. Idk man. Maybe,

so i was in love. whatever.so more than half of everything i've ever written was with your hand guiding my pen. what does that have to do with anything?you don't love (me) the way that i love (you).nothing that is said can be said with a shouteven whispers are too loudi have to close curtains and lock doors before i can dare to dream of youthe truth is whoever i meeti measure them with the ruler of youbecause you are the gold standardactually, i have a bati'm hitting and hitting and hitting but you lost all your blood a long time ago and the carpet is brown nowyou've been lying hereor what is left of you has been lying here and housekeeping is banging at the door but i slipped the receptionist a twenty so they let me keep this room for as long as i wantyou haven't moved in weeks but i swear i see your body twitch out of the corner of my eye and i start hitting againyou, of course, were not twitching.because you haven't moved in weeks.sometimes i wrap my hands around my neck to see what it feels like to be youother times i wrap them around your neck to show you what it feels like to be mei oscillate between begging you to wake up and smothering the pillow over your facenone of it matters, of course, because you haven't moved in weeks.but the actions help me to make up my mindwhenever i do that, i'll let you knowabby

early mornings r the worst :( ( i don't have anything special planned i was just unlucky n woke up early )

https://youtu.be/igqLDdMpHMU Yeah ♥

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Im happy to go to school but also anxious. The only bit i don't like is the learning (we have to learn about ww2) and i have to do pe with other classes. I dont mind school uniforms but the pe one sucks. School starts tomorrow , aaah wish me luck ♥

The best vibe is when it's raining and just listening to music while dancing and not even caring about anything in the world 

these pictures r from a while ago but my school has a lil pond!! and there's tons of froggies :))

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what the actual f*** does cantankerous even mean and why does it piss me off. stupid word. if you use is i dont like you. 

hello i stopped using friendproject for a longlong while...reading back on stuff is like "ew why was i like that" but i feel like using this more. i need an outlet for things. mostly just things on my mind that i feel like i cant say anywhere else. even around close friends. its weird. but hi.